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Here's a fresh Roll Call, last one hit 100 pages
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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![]() abigrand, Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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#2
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Thank you, Blue_Bird!
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I'm debating what hobby to start doing more regularly, I want to do all of them but I don't want to get overwhelmed. I want to start drawing again, playing my ukulele, and learning to crochet. Hard to pick
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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I have some vanilla bean buttercream scented wax melting in my Scentsy
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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![]() Angelique67, newtus, Sometimes psychotic
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Listening to music instead of sleeping.
I feel wrong. Hyper aware that I’m wrong. |
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Struggling hard with sleeping.
Clozapine makes me sleep at least 12 hours after I take it at night and I feel foggy headed all day even while awake, very annoynig.
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#9
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Just keep going over my head what the say to my doctor tomorrow.
Basically: I think the pharmacy is poisoning me and the meds are poison. I stopped taking the meds Wednesday afternoon. I just want to say **** the psychiatrist at this point I’m so exhausted with everything. I contacted a crisis hotline on Saturday I felt so bad. I’ve also had eating disorder thoughts and have barely ate anything the last few days. That really sums it up I think. |
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I don't feel well. I lied down in bed and my thoughts were kind of psychotic. The thoughts were like Alan Watts philosophy type. Then the olanzepine kicked in and I lied there for hours.
My mind feels like mush. |
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Yeah, I am talking to the doctor on Tuesday. I think I know what to tell her. Just that the Klonopin was destroying me.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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My mind feels similarly when I take olanzapine. I don't know why. Nor do I wish to discourage you from taking it. But it seems to have that effect on me. Also whenever I listen to Alan Watts stuff I get similar stuff going on, so I get what you mean by that.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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Also my psychiatrist said I should not be on olanzapine long-term. So that's good for me. I guess I don't know what I'll use to control positive symptoms though.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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Anyway, just listening to some music instead of sleeping. I wish days weren't constrained by sleeping hours. This band is so damned old too. I mean like still 2000s. But still. That's damned old by my standards.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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I feel annoyed by Facebook groups. Every group I’m in regardless what it’s about I only ever get maybe a couple likes and a couple comments. Everyone else seems to get lots of replies and likes.
I know I shouldn’t care but like they’re talking about baking a ****ing cake and I’m like ‘hi I’m literally losing my ****ing mind can someone give advice’. |
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I’ve been part of these groups for years and am fairly active. It’s just dumb. I feel like no one cares. |
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Fukkk guys I took kratom and phenibut and now I feel worse in some ways and better in others - Mostly anxiety reducing. I'll try and quit these + weed as well.
I can't wait for the NAC to arrive. I have a feeling that it helps but also because I know it helps, I'm aware of a placebo - That I'll be much happier.. being like how I was and able to have an improved cognition. I went to work and then spent like 3 hours researching crypto with no break. I'll try and go to sleep soon - Hopefully tomorrow will be better. |
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I understand not wanting to be on it though.....Olanzapine made me feel like a zombie.
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Yeah the thing is it controls my positive symptoms well. Abilify for the negative symptoms and severe depression. I should maybe not be so hasty this time about going off of olanzapine. Probably not to be honest. Last time I went off of it, it was quite nasty. And last time I went off of Abilify it was also quite nasty. These were all changes my past psychiatrist wanted to make. I don't know why. Just to cause trouble I guess. Seems like Klonopin was causing my severe depression lately too. So that's great. At least I know now.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#21
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I feel hella like a zombie. I feel pain. But it's ok.. I'll stay on these meds for a while but not forever!!
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Yeah I also realized that a higher dose of olanzapine (10 mg) helps my anxiety, too. Like a lot. So I somehow have to communicate all of this to my psychiatrist on Tuesday.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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I used to feel tons of just tactile emotional pain. I don't know if I still do. Sometimes I do I guess.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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I slept from 1130pm until 330am and I’m awake again. Boo.
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I can’t tell if I fell back asleep or if I just tossed and turned and stared at a wall for three and a half hours.
But I’m up now getting ready for work! Yay? |
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