Roll Call 194

I feel fragile right now. I want to ask for support from my friends but since I haven't been felt really heard by them lately, I'm not sure exactly what to say to get the support that I am looking for. I can't even define fragile so it might mean something different to different people. I'm also not too sure what it is that I need so it's hard to ask for what would help me feel better.

Hugs SK, you’ll always have support from us….

Thank you SP

SlumberKitty, like SP said you'll always have our support, we all care about you a lot. I'm sorry you have felt like you haven't been heard by your friends lately

Thanks Blue_Bird. I'm just feeling crappy.

I'm getting my hair cut next week. My hair is really long now, like I actually haven't had it cut in over 2 years. I kept putting it off. But I'm finally going to get it done. I'm getting a short layered bob. My hair has been annoying me lately because it's so long and difficult to deal with. I'm getting my eyebrows done too. I can't wait, it will feel a lot better. I might be able to go this weekend, just depends if I have the right amount of change for bus fare, I'll have to check my wallet. Going to Walmart's smart style salon to get it done.

Something like this:

Sorry, here it is:

I like it Blue_Bird!

Thanks, I hope it turns out well

I checked my wallet, I can go this Saturday

Getting my hair cut makes me nervous. Not that having my hair cut bothers me, it doesn't, it's just having people that close to me physically makes me jumpy and nervous. Same with the dentist

Happy day..

But need to sort out my existence somehow

I will find the way..

Have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow

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Yeah that makes sense. I like to spend time writing, studying, reading, etc. I guess it just seems like busyness for the sake of being busy isn't good for me. But I like being busy when it's something I feel is productive that keeps me occupied.

Anyway, I just applied to a full-time job. We'll see if I get it.

I also like the job idea of being a freelancer; it's just hard to do. But I can do it.

I felt weird about making a therapy appointment in the past because of what has been happening.

But now, I'll make an appointment for "post-apocalyptic therapy" tomorrow. I feel OK about that.

I colored a whole picture in my new coloring book. It's inspiring me to want to draw. And it's so relaxing

On the bus headed to the grocery store

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Got everything on my list. Now waiting for the bus to head home

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Hi friends. The dentist appointment went well. I got x-rays, both the regular kind and the panoramic kind, an exam, the dentist removed the bone spur that was hurting in my gum, and then I got a cleaning. $255. Not too bad. My gum is still sore but at least he was able to remove the stray random bone. He was like, that's weird. Yup, that's me!

I have therapy tonight. I have stuff to talk about but I kind of don't. We will see how this goes.

It's Taco Tuesday! I am buying tacos for me and a coworker today!

Did some cleaning, now to just find something to do until my therapy appointment at 3:30

It’s only 10am, I got up at 5am

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Are you anxious about your therapy appointment Blue_Bird?

I got up at 3:30 AM. My mouth was hurting and I had cramps. Bleh.

Crap. It is only like 730 AM and I am already taking anxiety medication!

Not really, I have some good stuff to tell her. I get to tell her that I put in the job application, tell her about Stash's surgery, and about my dentist appointments, so I'm kind of looking forward to it

I hope your appointment goes well

Stash likes to make an appearance during my appointments (they're on video chat) she gets up on the table and tries to walk across my laptop lol