Roll Call 194

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Here, how's this?

Cool I saw Lego succulents once too

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I had a good T session last night with Julieanne. I think she got more of where I was coming from. It's kind of hard when one is having some psychosis to explain to someone else what is going on, especially when one isn't too sure oneself! She told me I have been destabilizing this month (and Pdoc and I lowered one of the AP's this month--Latuda) so this morning I started the process to get a sooner appointment with him. It looks like mid July. So I can go back up on that medication. It feels like a defeat or a failure to me because I was trying to get off some medication but we didn't really discuss that too much last night. We did some reality testing and stuff like that. T was very nice and encouraging and also....realistic I think about some of my expectations that might not be realistic. So that was good. It was a good session. I wish they could all be that good!

Helen had a vet appointment yesterday, just a bi-yearly checkup and shots. She is healthy and doing good so I am relieved!

Here is Helen, thinking she is Queen of my Lazyboy!! This was last night, but since she had a vet appointment, I let her stay there!!

Well, she's sideways, but you get the idea!

Anyone know if you can tell the difference between negative symptoms of Schizoaffective and regular symptoms of depression? They seem kind of similar to me. I'm not sure which I am having. Or maybe I am having both! I will talk to Pdoc about it. T didn't really give me any good thoughts one way or the other about it. It might not matter, if the treatment is the same. There's not a lot of treatment that they can do for negative symptoms of Schizoaffective Disorder, but they can treat with anti-depressants, which I am already on.

I’ve been on all sorts of doses from zero to ten of Abilify…..what’s I e found is that 7.5 works for me but with some side effects like weight gain…..still not messing with it all the time I feel better. Now I’ve added some supplements but now ten years later the meds aren’t changing. Sometimes the tweaking fails but it’s not your fault. I’ve been off meds and felt horrible when I had to go back on, like I let down my treatment team and myself . I have so little psychosis that if anyone could go off it would be me and yet I can’t. Part of me is kinda anti med like I don’t even like taking cold medicine but the rest realizes I’m better off with these meds and in fact lucky to have them.

For you if you had the olanzapine you might have been ok but changing two meds at once was probably a mistake by the pdoc.

Birthday flowers from a coworker!! My favorite color, Pink!!

Beautiful! You have such thoughtful coworkers 😄

Yes, good points SP.

Tonight for my birthday I am going out with my parents to eat at Olive Garden. Then we will come home and have a cake that my Mom made. At work today we are having a luncheon. Baked potatoes and chili. And then chocolate cake and milk at 2 o'clock break. I am going to be so full!

My sister is getting the semi-colon tattoo today because of me. I get mine on Saturday. I wanted to get mine before my birthday but the guy didn't have availability.

The treatment isn’t the same really. As far as I can tell it’s a matter of what works. Antidepressants for depression and things like sarcosine for negative symptoms. If you don’t already know sarcosine is a supplement that is typically in powder form and can be added to coffee etc because it’s sweet. It’s scientifically proven to help neg symptoms but one of those things that can’t be patented so the drug companies don’t make it. It works both right away and even better after prolonged use….helps with motivation etc. think of it like caffeine. Anyway ask pdoc even before adding supplements especially where you’re at right now.

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I love Olive Garden…..especially the scampi…what is your favorite?

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Yum. I like either fettuccini or chicken parmesan. Not sure which I will get tonight!

Thanks SP. I will ask Pdoc.

Happy birthday SK

Thank you Desoxyn!

Happy birthday SK!

Thank you unsure!

Pink flower for your bday SK! Have a good one

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So Pretty! I love it!!!!

Just had some yummy chocolate cake at two o'clock break at work! And milk because you NEED milk with chocolate cake. It was REALLY chocolate-y!! I'm so full now and I am like, hmm, I am going out to dinner. But I have a plan. I am going to eat salad and breadsticks and take my meal home!