Roll Call 194

Hey everyone, I am grieving. I had transference with my T and now I have to see another T. It's such an awful feeling. I literally cried like a baby over the weekend because I shared such traumatic memories and stuff and all the other stuff with this T I developed transference for. Anyway, I hope this new T will be able to help me. That was why I was a little depressed about therapy the last few days. And gone from this site. I super wish that did not happen. I guess at least I was honest enough to bring it up. Ugh.

Here it is

The community breakfast/meeting went well. Just got back. It lasted about an hour and a half

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I washed my face this morning! Yay. I felt nauseated so I didn’t brush my teeth. Oh well.

There’s this lingering thought in the back of my mind that’s been there for a while almost this temptation to go off my meds to hear secret messages in music again. It’s annoying.

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Don't know if I'm happy or sad. But at least anhedonia is cured.

Late this afternoon my T is coming to my house to talk with me and my parents to as she put it "form a working together relationship" to support me.

I have never met T in person and I've never had my parents join a therapy session. So I am kind of nervous. I hope this goes well.

I feel like I'm being watched constantly

Have you changed any meds?

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No I've been on the same meds for a long time

Haven’t missed any? Any unusual stressors?

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I've been taking them regularly 99.9% of the time, the only time I missed any within the past several months was this morning, I missed my morning meds. But I've been feeling like this for a long time.

I feel like people are watching me and trying to get me kicked out etc

For me that’s a crossover between anxiety and psychosis, have you tried using woebot to counteract that thought. I would seriously consider taking the am meds now. Talk to a pharmacist but I know Abilify you’re supposed to take as soon as you realize you miss a dose.

I haven't used woebot lately but I'll try it.

It's already almost 3pm, I feel like it's too late, because I normally take my meds around 7am

My AM meds are trileptal, zoloft, abilify

I already took my afternoon dose of trileptal so I feel like I can't go back and take my morning meds now since I take that one 3 times a day

Can you call the pharmacist and get a professional opinion? The only one I’d take would be Abilify.

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I could but I’m just gonna wait till tomorrow to take it, I don’t want to talk to a pharmacist or call anyone right now.

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