Roll Call 196

"Insulin Resistance - Cause of Most Diseases And Most Deaths In Modern Times!"

Just a moment...

I signed up for a turkey basket, so I get a whole frozen turkey I can cook and sides I can make etc for Thanksgiving. I don't know what I'm gonna do with a whole turkey. I need to figure out if after I cook it I can freeze some of it or something for future meals, cause otherwise a lot would be wasted

I am doing pretty well today, just taught a class that went well I think. I am able to explain things about English grammar.

Anyone else feel depressed on weekends/after about 4 pm on Fridays? I sure do today. I don't know why...

You need to be out partying in the club, taking pills with a "" shape on them.

No jk.. I think around this time, you have a lot to think about (The day that has happened..), and not yet time to sleep...



For me, the right meds are helping somewhat. I was told that I'm very isolated (Cuz I felt sui until my mom came home - Cuz of not having anyone to talk to).

Listening to music. Had a good cup of coffee. First coffee in 4 or 5 days. In a good mood. Feel euphoric

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HALLLOWEEN IS ON MONDAY!!

so excited. Not doing much, just watching horror movies. Excited for the holiday season in general to start, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, etc

Existential crisis I have

I am doing better now that I took the 15 mg olanzapine. For some reason that modafinil was driving me off the wall though. So I stopped that.

I'm gonna try NAC (N-Acetyl-Cysteine) again (For negative symptoms).

I'll try ashwagandha again for stress.

Ket seems to mimic symptoms of schizophrenia (Cognitively) where I'd just stare at the floor for 5 minutes, thinking (I don't like that).

I would like to keep my mind less cognitively impaired..

I'll do something about the olanzepine. Maybe ask to decrease it from 10mg to 7.5mg.

And then I'd be pretty good (If all works out).

I started reading again.. I just get distracted though, ended up going into a wikipedia rabbit hole - But those aren't so bad... as long as I'm learning something (When I decide that I want to) and enjoy the moment..

I took magnesium yesterday (And the night before) and ended up being really physically tired... So I'm not taking it (I thought it would increase the effectiveness of the stimulant - But that didn't happen).

I forgot if you're taking fish oil or not. I take this ridiculously concentrated fish oil (it has EPA or eicosapentaenoic acid) which seems to help my moods. I know a lot of people swear by DHA fish oil but I find that the EPA helps me more (I have experimented with both types and it's usually when I have the higher concentration of EPA that I feel better.) Just a thought...

I am listening to an audiobook this morning. I find that having something on, whether it's an audiobook or music, helps my brain function better whether I'm paying attention to the audiobook or music or not.

Can you invite a friend over?

I don't really know anyone, I have one friend but he doesn't like turkey and is really picky about food. I'm just gonna make it and freeze the leftovers

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Just did 30 minutes on the treadmill plus weights and resistance bands/squats. Going to finish cleaning my apartment now

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Oh sorry I thought you had made a friend in the building too.

I did but she is going to her families for thanksgiving

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That's one of the best things, having lots of leftovers that can be put in the freezer!

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Blue_Bird, your teeth look great. My mom lived to be 94 years old, and still had her own teeth!!

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Thank you! And that's awesome! I hope to still have mine if I live that long

How have you been?

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I did some yoga tonight (about 20 minutes of it) because of feeing anxious. It helped. And meditated again for another 10 minutes

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Friend with autism/avoidant PD is very excited to teach me more coding stuff. It's a lot though. I'm overwhelmed.

I feel good and bad about myself - It'll do for now. I wonder if I'm depressed (Even though I have really good moments) because I become sad/even very dark so easily. Dysthymia? My mom is the opposite - So she has a;

"hyperthymic temperament" - ("It is generally defined by increased energy, vividness and enthusiasm for life activities, as opposed to dysthymia. Hyperthymia is similar to but more stable than hypomania.")

Work is closing down for 2 weeks, I'll work tomorrow - And then off to Mexico end of November

But on Tuesday, I'll travel with my mom to the city, I'd get to read and stuff in the car (Cuz no distractions), and then I'll sit around in the hotel for a few days, I'll learn the coding/programming/terminal/IT stuff (Which will really help me with organization, executive functioning).

My particular life is good.. The conspiracies, sure.. Everyone in the world is no doubt, 100% insane. But it ok.

I'm trying to get into a "flow" state - And so far, it's happening. Idk what's gonna happen.. Too many possibilities - I have potential, didn't fry my brain too much. But deep realizations happen every day.

I have a group of research chemical friends - I write differently to everyone in some way.. Just depending on the situation.. They've helped me (All oddly having autism/schiz), have been shamans.... And the podcasts, just learning every day - Why not before? - Cuz of my moms ex. He screwed up my development.

But anyways.. with "positive symptoms" - I love those. As long as I'm functional (And they are controlled), I hope they don't completely fade away again. But the DP/DR panic attacks have helped as well in a way that I can't explain.

I'll atTemPT to read books again... There's just so much stuff I want to do - And I'm burned out. I try to overcome the neurodegeneration.. Running as fast as I can to stay in the same place - That's how I feel.

Bandwidth!! Yes... I'm out of bandwidth...

It's a normal problem??

Meditate.. It always leads me back to that.

What use are brain training exercises on antipsychotics?