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Default Aug 25, 2023 at 10:01 AM
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I think JunkDNA did it….she’s not around here anymore though, idk if you know her outside Pc?

Yeah I have her on Facebook , I called social security though to ask and I can’t do the ticket to work program since I’m already hired but I can make up to a certain amount without it affecting my benefits.

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Default Aug 25, 2023 at 02:32 PM
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I feel really bad today. I can't take it anymore. I need help.

But no one can help me. I exist, forever. I hate this reality. I hate sex now, and sex obsessed people and society. I hated growing up. I hate the world. I want to die.

I'm not smart enough to do things. And I don't want to do them anyways.

This existence is pain. I don't want to help anyone either, cuz they're all just hallucinations - This whole world. It's just a dream.

It just goes around in a big circle.

I don't want love. It's fake.

No one can ****ing understand anything I'm saying. I'm not a person, just a series of random patterns that don't make any sense. That's all this world is.
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Default Aug 25, 2023 at 02:43 PM
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All I can do is try to feel better - Cuz I have no choice but to live. Cuz I exist forever anyways - What ever ******** that I'm hallucinating.

So I took phenibut. That'll kick in in 2 hours.
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Default Aug 25, 2023 at 04:21 PM
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Sorry.. Was just venting. I'll feel better..

Work really gets to me. And the weird autist friend, and all of the time I've lost.. My family doesn't like it.

I spent over a year, doing basically nothing - But listening to podcast clips, making goals that I haven't accomplished much.

My mom says that I do well, helping her with things.. I just feel like a failure in some way. I don't want my mom to work so much.. She has nothing.
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Default Aug 25, 2023 at 08:19 PM
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I feel so much better =[

I'm sorry!

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So I just need to learn, that I can feel better..

It's like bipolar.
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I feel really bad today. I can't take it anymore. I need help.

But no one can help me. I exist, forever. I hate this reality. I hate sex now, and sex obsessed people and society. I hated growing up. I hate the world. I want to die.

I'm not smart enough to do things. And I don't want to do them anyways.

This existence is pain. I don't want to help anyone either, cuz they're all just hallucinations - This whole world. It's just a dream.

It just goes around in a big circle.

I don't want love. It's fake.

No one can ****ing understand anything I'm saying. I'm not a person, just a series of random patterns that don't make any sense. That's all this world is.
It is fake in a way, but it provides happiness so why not?

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It is fake in a way, but it provides happiness so why not?
I love happiness =]

But there's many other things of course! (Common for me to list "Many things" and "etc", that I can't list at the top of my head)...

But eventually, I'll list all the things in the universe. I will although need a powerful fusion reactor (For the energy);

"The UK plans to build the world's first fusion power plant, STEP, based on a 'tokamak' design that uses magnetic fields to confine a plasma of heavy isotopes of hydrogen, tritium, and deuterium, which fuse under extreme heat and pressure. The international ITER experiment being built in southern France aims to do that in 2035. The Chinese Fusion Engineering Testing Reactor could come online as early as 2035, and DEMO, a European successor to ITER, is planned for the 2050s"
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Getting some McDonald’s this weekend to celebrate getting my first job. Probably getting a Big Mac , fried and a Frappuccino

I’m curious as to what my actual schedule will be. Will probably find out during orientation.

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Default Aug 26, 2023 at 02:51 PM
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Harvested our jalapeños! My mom’s cousin gave us a bunch of corn when we went and bought honey from him (we now have 14 gallons of honey), so we canned some corn salsa with some of the jalapeños.

So the stuff sliced in the picture are all being pickled and canned so we’ll have pickles jalapeños all winter long. I love them on like burgers, hot dogs, pizza, poutine, and in nacho mac and cheese.

Also we threw some potatoes in a couple pots in the spring and they actually produced some potatoes! They’re tiny but it’s enough for some roasted potatoes.

So I productive day. I also went to the chiropractor and the gym. All good.

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Harvested our jalapeños! My mom’s cousin gave us a bunch of corn when we went and bought honey from him (we now have 14 gallons of honey), so we canned some corn salsa with some of the jalapeños.

So the stuff sliced in the picture are all being pickled and canned so we’ll have pickles jalapeños all winter long. I love them on like burgers, hot dogs, pizza, poutine, and in nacho mac and cheese.

Also we threw some potatoes in a couple pots in the spring and they actually produced some potatoes! They’re tiny but it’s enough for some roasted potatoes.

So I productive day. I also went to the chiropractor and the gym. All good.

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That’s awesome! I’ve never canned anything before. Seems like fun

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I bought three brand new button down shirts for work. Dress code is any solid color professional collared shirt (of any color) with no logos showing on it, or blouse, jeans, pants, or dresses. All are acceptable. It’s buisiness casual. So I got a black one, a white one, and a light blue one. I got long sleeved ones because it’s air conditioned inside and fall is coming soon anyway. I’m just gonna wear them with jeans because that’s what I have right now but once I get my first paycheck I plan on buying a couple pairs of dress pants and maybe one more button down and a haircut.

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Default Aug 26, 2023 at 06:06 PM
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Also just made some honey bbq sauce going to use it on some ribs tomorrow.

I’m going to figure out something to do with a bunch of fresh broccoli as well.

Gotta do some cleaning tomorrow. Don’t want to but gotta do it.

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Also just made some honey bbq sauce going to use it on some ribs tomorrow.

I’m going to figure out something to do with a bunch of fresh broccoli as well.

Gotta do some cleaning tomorrow. Don’t want to but gotta do it.

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All the cooking you do is inspiring ! I want to learn how to cook more , I rarely do it due to lack of motivation

I have to clean tomorrow too, and also don’t feel like it. Lol but I set aside 2 1/2 hours aside in the morning to just get it done and over with

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Played a couple rounds of the yugioh card game with my boyfriend tonight then we watched some anime

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These are the shirts I got

Practiced violin for 30 minutes today, I didn’t practice for a couple days but plan on practicing everyday because I have another lesson next Sunday and I want to improve some by then.
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All the cooking you do is inspiring ! I want to learn how to cook more , I rarely do it due to lack of motivation

I have to clean tomorrow too, and also don’t feel like it. Lol but I set aside 2 1/2 hours aside in the morning to just get it done and over with

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Honestly this week was a lazy week.

Monday went and got savoury crepes takeout for dinner. Tuesday had rice bowls for takeout for dinner. Thursday we went and got burgers takeout. Friday we ended up getting fries from Five Guys and made poutine. Today we did make fried fish (and also used the leftover fries) for lunch but we went and got pitas for dinner.

We just were busy or tired or lazy this week. Try to eat takeout less this next week lol.

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Woke up happy this morning. Still happy.
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Wow, looks like I missed a lot! Congrats, Blue_Bird on your job! I hope it's going well.

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Happy birthday to Newtus, hope it's a good one!

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