Roll Call 201

Tonight I’m making seasoned drumsticks with instant cheddar mashed potatoes and canned veggies

Why not make a fancier ramen with a cooked egg and stir fry veggies added to the top?

I left the heater fan on all night - And had crazy dreams. I was flying a plane, trying to land to a place where I'd fix my tooth.. And something about my doctor throwing a party in his house.. or something.. I can't remember..

Another was where mom was getting cancer treatment - And there was this set of colourful buildings. Some musician was living there, and my mom was like "See if you can rent a room with him, so you don't have to pay 1000 dollars for a hotel" - And I befriended him. There were like.. chambers.. for prostitutes, connected to "Hookah nicotine vapes" connected to each chamber, and I was just puffing the nicotine, went to sleep.

One was where I was at my sisters house (And there were vents in each room) - Spiders would crawl out of them, and attempt to bite us. There were drug containers, where the spiders would be captured (In a room with 6x vents) - And when they'd bite my sister, she'd get anti-venom (And hopefully it was no problem).

But I found myself, lying on the floor.. In the hallway, not being able to get up.. Cuz I was just too hot, and relaxed.

I woke up, and my Dyson fan was blasting hot air - My mom came in, and said "Your cat is upset because it's too hot in your room - Turn it off!".

I’ve never tried adding anything to ramen before but that sounds interesting, I always see people adding lots of stuff to ramen like eggs, veggies etc. is it good that way?

Been pretty good. Went back to the gym the other day.

TMI but I got an irregular period again. It’s annoying. It felt really bad the other day I couldn’t really do anything.

Otherwise good mood! Been chatting with people online a lot. Having fun.

Have acupuncture tomorrow after work. Then really just the rest of the time gym.

Not much else.

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Some of the cats from my volunteer shift today. These two are so sweet. They all are really. There were a lot of cats there today.

There was a cat named Soot Sprite and another named Mignon

Now I’m relaxing and trying to mentally prepare for the stress of tomorrow

I’m working on learning how to crochet, I have the supplies. I’m gonna try to practice everyday till I get better at it

Had my dental appointment today. To replace the crown. They did some fillings on the part of tooth that was underneath it then built it back up some because it needed more volume for the permanent crown I’m getting to hold on to the tooth . I guess when the old crown fell off it took a piece of tooth with it and it was already really small because you know when they put crowns initially on they have to drill the tooth down really small anyway for it to fit. So that’s done. My bottom lip is numb from the novacain and the tooth hurts now pretty bad. I’ll have to take some ibuprofen. I have an appointment in two weeks from now to get the permanent crown placed on. Can’t eat anything really hard for two weeks especially on that side. And I’m supposed to chew what I do eat on the other side until the crown is on. So I don’t mess up how they built the tooth up or chip it.

Now just relaxing a bit. Have to shower in awhile and clean up a little bit then head out around 2:40 for my shift at Burlington. The bus comes at 3pm. Gets there at 3:16 pm. And there’s like a 15 minute walk to Burlington after that. I just want to make sure I get there a little early on my first day. Then I get off at 9pm and depending on when the bus comes I should be home around 10 to 10:30pm

I’m so nervous. Keep worrying that my manager will think I’m stupid or too slow or something at my job. Idk what orientation consists of but it lasts 5 hours. From what I heard it’s a lot of learning stuff on a computer then answering quizzes and stuff throughout etc I don’t know if I’ll even be at a cash register tonight probably not. I hope I’m not too slow or nervous when I am doing it, cause I shake sometimes and don’t want to drop peoples money or give them the wrong change etc

I feel like I can do great if I put my mind to it. I just have to relax and not let my anxiety overwhelm me. What’s the worst that can happen. I mess up and it’s not the end of the world because people mess up their first few weeks on a new job and then get better over time.

I think once I get it all down it will be a very repetitive thing. Saying hello, how are you, smiling, scanning items telling them the total, taking the money and giving them the change or doing their credit or debit card and giving them just doing that over and over again all day every shift. So it will probably become second nature after a month of it.

Yeah you got this! Becomes second nature after a while don’t worry.

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Found out the whole thing for Dynacare to manage your test results isn’t for my province so I can’t do it. Sucks.

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Just got home. Went well. Got my badge. 4 hours of sitting in the training room watching training videos and taking quizzes the entire time. Then one hour one the sales floor returning clothing from the fitting room returns to the proper places.

I have another night shift tomorrow (5pm to 11:30pm).

The manager is really nice

The break room is cool. Has a keurig, a fridge, a microwave , and has ramen, and ice cream in the fridge lol

I get two 15 minute breaks as far as I know

They took my photo and posted it up on the Burlington social media page welcoming me

Bought my ski pass (1 day early) for 624 dollars. It would have been 800 and something if I didn't buy early. I do this every year.

Should be good.. I'll try and look forward to skiing.. And be happy!

Cuz last winter, I wasn't happy at all.. I've never been so suicidal as last winter than since before being put on meds.

Sorry to hear that Cogladaid, are there any other services that can manage your test results in your area?

Glad you got your ski pass Desoxyn, that sounds like a lot of fun. I've never skiied, always been interested in trying out snowboarding though

No, I can only get that test results through the doctor. I mean it’s not bad I just have to remember to ask when I see him.

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I'm hoping tonight goes well. I'll probably be on the cash register. Hopefully they have someone there to show me what to do and watch me for awhile to make sure I'm doing it right before they leave me on my own. It's so surreal to me that I have a job now.

Plan on cleaning the apartment today that way I don't have to wake up to a mess tomorrow since I won't be home till after midnight tonight. That way I'll wake up to a nice clean organized apartment. Other than that practicing violin for a bit. I have another lesson on Sunday. I'm assuming I'll have a day off probably this weekend, not sure if it will be Saturday or Sunday. Cause I put my availability down for 25-30 hours a week and tonight is a 6 1/2 hour shift. I'll get my full schedule tonight though. Paydays are every friday morning. I'm assuming my first paycheck will be delayed to next Friday since I just started yesterday though. Set up direct deposit with my bank and gave the info to my manager.

also gonna make sure to spend quality time with my cats before work because I know they're probably a little confused at me being gone for long hours when I'm usually home 95% of the time.

BB.. We did well with you *Bawling emoji face*

No jk, you did all this by self. I hope things go smoothly. It could be tough, just getting used to it.

Like for me, I haven't worked for a year (In 2019, before 2020) - And it felt so difficult.. to just to the most basic things.. Now everything is so easy, automatic. I like time to think.

Not cutting those damned 1000 potatoes though.. That drives me nuts. I sit there, and the Vyvanse focuses on the potatoes.. It's like "Why am I supposed to hyperfocus on this.. Is this a joke?"

So more novelty is good - Talking to customers etc. I think they like to tell u about their day etc and vent (Some of them). Then different foods, tampons, condoms etc.

Thank you so much Desoxyn! It’s been a slow processes, but I finally have job and am gonna do my best to do well in it. It is gonna be an adjustment for sure though. The hours are a little rough. Tonight’s 5pm to 11:30pm. So I won’t be home till after midnight. Probably won’t be able to get to sleep till 2am. But I’ll get used to it. Im hoping when they make my schedule they stick me in a relatively regular shift and keep me at whatever one I’m on. Cause it’s hard to adjust sleeping if you jump around from morning to late night shift back and forth. So hopefully there’s some consistence in my schedule. You all have helped me a lot with motivation too because many of you all have jobs and that made me want to push myself to get one and see what I can do and get out of my comfort zone. Plus I have my volunteer thing too. So things have changed a lot for me the past 6 months. Plus I have my violin lessons. In January I’ll go back to college to finish my associates degree.

One thing that’s cool is I notice that now that I’ve begun working I’m more motivated to clean. So I can come home to a clean apartment each work day. And I shower before going into work. So my hygiene is better too.

Anyway, you all are an inspiration and thank you for your tips and motivating me and being great friends

I might ask my new psychiatrist about getting back on a beta blocker cause they work well for my anxiety especially the physical symptoms of anxiety like shaking , heart racing etc. it would probably be a good idea to get back on those just to make things a little less stessful while standing at a register with lines of people coming up for me to scan their items and deal with their cash or credit/debit processed. And taking the clothing off hangers and folding them before putting them in a bag. I think we have to tell them about a sweepstakes too after getting their receipt out and highlight something on it so they can take a survey and win $100 if they get picked. And then theirs the Burlington credit cards that they can apply for while at the register and the loyalty program. So that’s a bunch of other processes I’ll have to learn. It’s a lot lol.

Just got home and ate. It’s 12:50am. I legit am so sore. My legs, my feet, my back all hurt so bad. I’m not used to standing for 6 1/2 hours straight. The regular manager wasn’t there today so I didn’t get a chance to get my schedule. I’ll have to call him tomorrow and ask him when I’m going to be scheduled for.

So yeah the cash register is okay but it’s also frustrating because there’s so many different processes it can do that I keep having to call the superviser over to help me with things. I can do the basic scan, bag and give them their change or process their card stuff. That was easy to get down. It’s the people who want to put stuff on layaway or the people who want to return stuff or the people who want to use their gift certificate. Theirs like a different process for each of those. Then there’s the people who want to split their payment with cash and card. It’s just a lot of stuff to learn. Those are the once’s I haven’t gotten down yet. There was a customer that got mad at the lady who I was shadowing because she was talking to me while she was scanning stuff because she was trying to train me while doing her job , and this customer got *****y about it. Idk why some people are such assholes over the stupidest things.

Unfortunately you need to deal with a lot of aholes in retail.

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There was a cute little toddler though maybe like 3 years old, one of the items I scanned was a Barbie and I put it in the bag and started scanning the other stuff , she asked her mom where her toy went so I took it out of the bag for her to hold while I continued scanning items since it was already scanned and we can do that, she then asked if I had Barbie’s lol she was adorable. Then there was another 2-3 year old sitting in her moms cart waving to me saying by and smiling on the way out. So that makes up for the assholes.