[AlexClayton]

I posted on the new members resently about this; I am in my late teens, and think I may have Schizophrenia, I took the quiz on this site and some others that were related and it said I have early signs of Schizophrenia and says I may have OCD as well. Don't know what any of this means, I have been obsessivly attatched to people and things( a girl I know, and books or movies that get to me) I somtimes feel like I am one of the characters in the movies or books, and the girl I feel I love is socialy unexeptable for me to love. I have not told my parents or family for I feel they would think I were lying or just making it up for attention or somthing. When I enter certain areas I feel like somone is there with me, and I act violent towards certain people who don't deserve it but I feel and unending hatred towards them, the thoughts I have about them somtimes make me feel like a Nazi, but I like their idea of total control. I don't have a problem with Jews or anyother race, nationaloty, or religion, just people I feel are inferior. Drug addicts, smoking addicts, people who are well, poor and homless. I don't know why, but I feel I want to eliminate them, I have even devised schemes in my head on how to get away with it. So any help or advise would be nice. PS: I have NEVER gotten this personal with my thoughts.

[shichi]

I read your introduction and I'm confused - are you basing your assumptions about schizophrenia from what your doctor is actually telling you, or just from an online quiz? Introduction seems to suggest one thing, what you're saying here is another.

Anyways I hope you can control your urges about wanting to hurt others, it doesn't sound like a pleasant place to be. You might be able to see a medical practitioner confidentially at your age without them telling your parents, I'm not sure how the system works where you live.

[AlexClayton]

I went to see a doctor and he says " I am developing early signs of Catatonic Schizophrenia, I went with my older brother who filled out the papers so my parents wouldn't know. I just don't know what I have, I have the early signs, but also have signs of OCD, I am going in for another meeting to help determine what it is.

IT TAKES MANY YEARS TO DIAGNOSE SCHIZOPHRENIA and I think it irresponsible to think other wise.Its the duration of both positive and negative symptoms that define any psychotic disorder. I think you might benefit from reading the life and times of Ioseb Besarionis dze Jughashvili (J Stalin) his kill point averaged at the end of 1944 was 70.000.000,and 40.000.000 were his own people which he starved to death between
1931 and 1934 35 This guy makes Adolf Hitler look like school girl,
What you think Hitler whipped out the final solution out of his but
no that came from the JOESPH IOSEB STALIN HIS NAME ACTUALLY MEANS MAN OF STEEL !After Stalingrad the frozen bodies left of the Nazi's were eaten by the people....mmmmm those were good times don't you know!

Originally Posted by AlexClayton

I went to see a doctor and he says " I am developing early signs of Catatonic Schizophrenia, I went with my older brother who filled out the papers so my parents wouldn't know. I just don't know what I have, I have the early signs, but also have signs of OCD, I am going in for another meeting to help determine what it is.

I'm no PHD,MD I have been dealing with these things for 30yrs.There is no telling(even after therapy)of what you might be suffering from.The responsible DR.will agree and then give you his best guess diagnostic from your symptoms(which change with duration).
(Even the best will admit we don't know).I suspect your OCD is driving you bonkers and my experience turned it to uncontrollable paranoia which inturn came to be paranoid schizophrenia.I don't have the answers but neither does your Dr.

[AlexClayton]

Nice little bit about Stalin, don't know the point of that yet but ok. And thanks for the advice, you do sound right. I will just do whatever the doc tells me and take the meds he percribes but other than that, I'm not going to worry about it.

[AppinIsobel]

A Canadian early treatment information website http://www.psychosissucks.ca/epi/

Dr Long's websight: http://www.mentalhealth.com/

[Shoe]

It is too bad that the girl that you love is socially unacceptable for you to love. Having a romantic relationship can be a very healthy thing for promoting people's self-worth. At some point we have to live our own lives and not let society dictate our every move. That being said, there is something to social norms and our behavior, but we have to find some middle ground where we can be happy also. Happiness is related to our self-worth and there are other ways we can work on that. Working towards a career or volunteering to aid in social causes are a couple. When we start feeling better about ourselves we tend to stop projecting what we don't like about ourselves onto other people.
This guy here wrote a pretty good book if you are in to self-help books.
http://www.mindfulselfcompassion.org/
Hope that this helps some, Shoe

Originally Posted by AlexClayton

I posted on the new members resently about this; I am in my late teens, and think I may have Schizophrenia, I took the quiz on this site and some others that were related and it said I have early signs of Schizophrenia and says I may have OCD as well. Don't know what any of this means, I have been obsessivly attatched to people and things( a girl I know, and books or movies that get to me) I somtimes feel like I am one of the characters in the movies or books, and the girl I feel I love is socialy unexeptable for me to love. I have not told my parents or family for I feel they would think I were lying or just making it up for attention or somthing. When I enter certain areas I feel like somone is there with me, and I act violent towards certain people who don't deserve it but I feel and unending hatred towards them, the thoughts I have about them somtimes make me feel like a Nazi, but I like their idea of total control. I don't have a problem with Jews or anyother race, nationaloty, or religion, just people I feel are inferior. Drug addicts, smoking addicts, people who are well, poor and homless. I don't know why, but I feel I want to eliminate them, I have even devised schemes in my head on how to get away with it. So any help or advise would be nice. PS: I have NEVER gotten this personal with my thoughts.

[AlexClayton]

I've been reading some of that book each night, it's quite good and thanks for showing me that. Sorry I didn't get back in a while, I just don't have time to talk much online. I'm very busy. I've started to notice the parinoia much more and I've had breif periods of voices, usually it's justn noises, so...that sucks. Nice talking to you, thanks for the advice.