[Nabil]

i didnt discuss this with anyone.
Now Im giivg SAT,my dads gonna kill me after i got B and 2 Cs in A-LEVELS and u know why i got such bad result?well during exam the same uncontrollable era started even though id train my self dont do it but its almost like a seperate entity of me which i talk to.

I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT A PART OF ME AND FORGET ABOUT IT.
I dont want u guys saying " oh u have a big problem u need drugs and blablabla "
I KNOW I CAN DEFEAT IT!!!
I just need reason to believe that ' ITS ALL IN MY HEAD"""just **** it!!"

pleaseee e

[Nabil]

oh snap the first para got cut off!
well basically,i have uncontrollable negative thoughts only when im studying cuz i was bullied once.
so i wonna ask if its in my command or not?
YES or NO
and it will all be over.

[Michah]

Nabil,

I may not answer the way you want me too.....but I shall try.

When you ask if it is in your head and you can control it.......to a certain degree you can......we all have that power.......but control comes from KNOWING.

Control can also be compulsive, vigilant and unhealthy.......it is ACCEPTING that is the true path to mental freedom........accepting comes when you make peace with what is happening.....not fighting with it like you are trying to control an anaconda

Sometimes we need help with learning to accept.......I understand and respect your feelings about "drugs and other things"(sorry can't remember your exact words), however, to deny yourself the help, whatever that may be, is to deny yourself freedom........sometimes talking about what has happened can open doorways to healing.......

Be kinder to yourself, love yourself infinitely and accept these negative feelings.......no expectations and remember.......to forgive......

Take good care of you, Nabil........there is only one.......

[Nabil]

thanks Micah.
I just needed someone telling me some positive things.
In past,lots of negative has jumbled up inside my head.
Thank GOD,we all have CONTROL over our mind.
Yes I am going to do positive things from now on.
but i can tell from experience,becuz it so much of negative,Id need people like to keep reminding that v hv control to push these thoughts and to accept and to forgive/

[Michah]

Originally Posted by Nabil

thanks Micah.
I just needed someone telling me some positive things.
In past,lots of negative has jumbled up inside my head.
Thank GOD,we all have CONTROL over our mind.
Yes I am going to do positive things from now on.
but i can tell from experience,becuz it so much of negative,Id need people like to keep reminding that v hv control to push these thoughts and to accept and to forgive/

No problems, babe......

We are here.......for the good......and for the bad.....keep talking

Take care.....

Michah