[UnspokenWords]

It all started out when I was texting my friend whom I talk to, text, and hang out with a lot I suddenly didn't feel like texting her, I didn't even want to talk to or interact with anyone. My family were the only people who I didn't really mind. I told my friend that I was watching a movie (which I wasn't) and I couldn't text. She responded "Okay bye!" I watched TV trying to forget about what I just did. I was on break from school and was trying to relax. The day I came back to school I acted normal, like I really did want to hang out with my friends, even though I didn't. I just pretended I was okay. The next day, my closest friend was noticing I was being a bit irritable that day. And asked me why. I told her it was complicated and that I would tell her later. Eventually, I got to a point where I didn't want to be with my friend so much that we stopped being friends and now I hang out with my friends ex-friend and her ex-friends best friend. I eat lunch with them then I hang out with my other friends. Now, while this is all going on, I (on the inside) don't want to be with my friends. I hide everything with a smile. They think I'm okay, everyone thinks I'm okay. But I'm not Sometimes my mom or friends will ask me if I am okay. I will say yes and smile. But it burns a hole in my heart to hide everything. This has been going on for 2 and a half months. The only reason I kept on dealing with this with out saying something is because there's this guy that I like a lot. I only see him after school for 5 minutes, 2-3 times a week. When I can't meet him after school, I feel really bad because as I said before, he's the only reason I deal with all of this. I'm just so sick of hiding everything and I hope this wasn't too long. Please help me..!

If you were not dealing with this to see this guy for 5 minutes two or three times a week, what would you be doing differently?

[Perna]

If you're not fine, you're not fine. I don't understand why you say you are to everyone and hang around everyone you don't want to hang around. The suddenness of not wanting to text your friend, what was that about? I don't think it can get better if you're only enjoying 5 minutes of your time a couple days a week, the majority of your time and feelings are against you. I would ask your mom if you can see a counselor.

[Junerain]

Can you go to a school counselor?

I agree, counselor. Good thing: you posted here! if you talk to a counselor, you prob. won't have a hard time saying everything you said here. he/she would be able to help out as much as possible.

This could get worse, don't ignore it and think things will get better (not saying that it couldn't, but what if things don't? (keep that in mind!!)).
It may be hard to tell someone your problems, but it will get fixed (another thing to keep in mind).

just try to relax, tc! (sending a hug your way! )

[(JD)]

I agree with not ignoring this. You're changing your lifestyle and are unhappy about it. I don't understand why you can't say you aren't up to texting right now...instead of lying about it so you don't have to. Texting should not be a requirement for friendship imo.

So you think you really like this guy? How great that would be if he knew and shared those feelings. What are the complications to this I wonder. You didn't share much about the whole crux of the matter: this guy and your feelings. You don't have to share here, but I would seek out your counselor at school and find out how everyone else handles life situations like this.


I'm sorry you don't feel safe enough with your friends or your family to share about how there's this guy you like...but...