[kaleymarie97]

so this has been going on for quite a long time. i have always been known for being shy in front of small groups and definitely large crowds. at home i am very open and super hyper and fun to be around. it seems like everyone doesnt want to talk to me unless i start the conversation and they see that im really a funny and random caring person. i wish i could be more open with people and show them the real me but theres something inside that stops me. if im super comfortable with someone, then i can walk with them and be myself but if im with someone who is also around there other friends i feel like the outcast and i shut down instantly. ive taken soooo many tests on here for this and i answered them as honest as possible. they all say i have it or may have social anxiety disorder. i wish there was a way to fix this. im almost 18 and i cant even go to lunch without feeling scared or like im being watched. :/

[jelly-bean]

It sounds like anxiety and self-esteem issues to me. Maybe you should try posting in those forums and see what others who have those problems can tell you. There is a lot of advice and support from friendly people in both places.

Hello kaleymarie97: I know what you're writing about here. I've always been uncomfortable out in public. I've also always been phobic about public speaking! Getting through a public speaking class in college (which was a required class) was traumatic to say the least. And it hasn't gotten allot better as I've aged either.

There are programs that work with people to help desensitize them to things such as being out in public. I would think that it might make sense for you to check into something like this. You still have your entire adult life ahead of you. You don't want to spend it struggling to feel comfortable out amongst other people.

My best wishes to you...

[Crazy Hitch]

Im similar in the way I interact with others.

I'm kind of wary when I first meet people and I keep them at a slight distance. Honestly, it comes down to my self esteem. I fear people won't like me and I don't want the rejection. So I'd rather not be hurt.

But once I get to know someone I'm more comfortable around them and I can let my guard down.

I don't do well in social situations.