[simplylife]

Overwhelming is definitely the word at this point, as much as a cliche as it sounds from a grad student. I will be done with my masters this year, the fall to be exact. The program is challenging, as to be expected, and in addition to that, the program requires a mandatory sort of an unpaid internship. The job requires a lot of responsibilities (which is good I guess, considering that that is the job I will be getting eventually). So, I got grad school and an unpaid job.

And I'm clinically depressed (Prozac 20 mg) and anxious (Xanax .5 mg when needed). I lose motivation easily and it's hard to bring it back up. And of course all of the thoughts of failure, uncertainly, fear are there. It would definitely help sharing my thoughts with other people; but that is it, I don't have people to share. I wish I had someone to share my failures, my successes, my thoughts, but I just simply don't have that someone. I'm generally alone all day: studying, eating, resting. I really don't have friends. It's tough, really, to undergo with such a challenge alone. I'm tired.

[sideblinded]

(((simplylife)))

I remember college and it was such a blur as it was such a busy time. You have so much to do that I don't see how friends in real life would be easy to acquire. Don't lose hope because in no time you will be done with school as time will pass quickly. I understand that you are alone and tired. You can come here and vent your frustrations anytime that you want. We are here. I am sending you many hugs from afar. (HUGS)) You will make it and you will be ok.

[kim_johnson]

Aw, hey. I'm going to have an awful lot of what you've got in my future, if things go my way... Heh. More seriously... It sounds like you are doing really well to be hanging in there. I'm sorry that you don't have anyone to talk to. That has always been the hardest thing for me. To feel like I'm struggling through things alone.

Are there other people on your program who you get on with? They seem like a fairly natural place to look for people who are going through a similar thing to you with respect to juggling the demands of the program and internship, at least. Are you able to access counseling services on campus to help you decompress from what is going on in the program?