Rant about how stupid I am and how I'm going to fail.

So I started college last month, I'm on premed and as crazy as it sounded I have no previous knowledge about anything, yet I had the naive belief I would get it once I started studying on this career.

When I chose Medicine I knew it was going to be hard, and it's all good with me, it was no problem to me, it was -as I put it- a challenge.
I was always the best at my school without making any effort at all.
As a side note I want to say I never got why people with low graders were possible. I am not smart, not even a little bit, I honestly -please know that I'm not lying- know absolutely nothing about anything.

So now that I'm here, are the finals are here. My classmates are so beyond smart, all of them, just today got a test and I scored 0, not even joking.
I can't comprehend anything, I can't keep a study-habit.
I am so stressed and sad and I can't put it together, I can't, my dad, he's never asked about my grades until now and I just don't know how to tell people I'm behind at everything.

I also want to get into a study group but I don't know how, specially because in this past month I've learnt nothing and I can't help others.
Been keeping my stupidness as a secret but yes everyone else in the group knows I'm the weakest, even the teachers, one of two have actually said to me I need an assessor more than the others but oh yes I can't pay for it. I tried to talk with the psychologist from our faculty, he's never there, so I'm probably going to miss this semester and start all over on August and I'm so sad I disappointed everyone and made them believe I was smart and responsible.

(((Sinatrasbelle))) You sound very overwhelmed. Pre med is tough. Every one who goes through it has had to fight for it. You know you are smart, as you got great grades at your previous schools. Nothing has changed in that department, you are still smart.

Perhaps now it's more difficult, because all of the information coming at you is new. You're basically at ground zero again and once you master this level you can build on it as you did when you first started school as a child.

A school counselor may be able to help you come up with some coping strategies for time management and your class studies, and even hook you up with a study group. There is safety in numbers I always say. The more brains you have studying for a test the better chance you have.

Go easy on yourself. College is a new world for you right now. Be honest with your family as this will relieve a lot of the pressure you're feeling. Breathe...... If you have to repeat a semester then you repeat the semester. Sometimes it take a few times. Be well.

Hey don't be so hard on yourself. Everybody won't be on the same page when it comes to learning. Yes there will be people smarter than you and will make it look like a breeze while others may fail tests and take it at a snail's pace but you know you just keep at it. And don't feel like you've disappointed anyone cause you haven't. If a person thinks that you have to have you life together and be perfect then they're wrong. If the worse happens and you have to retake the do so there is no shame.

I have every assurance that you are smart. You are just overwhelmed. I know the feeling. I felt it a lot as an undergrad and I'm sure I'll feel it again if I ever get into grad school (fingers crossed). EVERYBODY gets stressed around finals. And people with mental illness get it 10x worse. So remember to take breaks (I'm having to remind myself of that right now), take things one step at a time, break things into small chunks that you can achieve in a reasonable amount of time and keep plugging away. If after all that it doesn't end up working out, you'll have some time to regroup before August and you'll be able to get a fresh start. It's not the end of the world, even though I know it feels like it. You can do this.