Not sure where to put this?? Problem i need to sort out...

I don't talk. There isn't a specific place for mutism so I thought I would just put it here.
I'm 15 and have been mute because of mental health issues for a year.
I don't think I will ever really talk again, but since yesterday, I have become terrified.

My friend from the psych hospital I am in ran away yesterday. I was the only person who knew. Luckily, she was caught on her way out by the food delivery man, but if he hadn't been there to stop her, my inability to talk would have meant that staff didn't get to her in time (she was going to the train tracks).

Since then, all I have been able to think about is what if there is an accident and I cant call a ambulance or a police when I need to. And even if there isn't an accident, there are so many restrictions.

I want to be a midwife. I cant do that if I cant speak.

I like skiing, I like hiking, I like rock climbing, but how can I do any of those things safely if I cant shout for help if something goes wrong.

I don't think I could talk even if I tried. Its like there is a physical restriction stopping my voice from working. I can make baby noises and such, but that's all.

Does anyone have any advice for how I can either start talking, or be more independent whilst not talking? I'm really scared abou tmy future and the safety of the people I am with all the time.

This needs to get sorted. I need my life back.

Because of PTSD I didn't talk for two and a half years when I was 8 years old. My mom drove me back and forth to ballet class an hour hour each way and I would not say a word. Finally one day she asked me a question and I just shrugged. And I heard her sigh. I thought why can't I at least answer her? Why cant i atleast participate and communicate? So I decided right then and there that I would make an effort to start talking- to answer when asked a question and spoken to and since then it's been much easier. But I went two and a half years without speaking. good luck and I hope that helps

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You might not have verbal communication skills right now but you do have communication skills.

First lets look at what skills you have available that you can use right now. You are able to communicate here on the forum so you could write a message to someone to get help.

I was 24/7 caregiver for my parents. My mom was on oxygen full time and could only whisper. I bought her a bear whistle to wear around her neck so she could blow it to get my attention. I also put a bicycle horn on her walker so she could make noise with that. I also bought a canned air horn so she could make a very loud noise if I was outside.

You just need to think out of the box about what is available and how you can use it. Another resource might be to learn how to use the phone system that hearing impaired people use.

Good Luck and I hope you gain your voice back sooner rather than later.