is this healthy?

i have many disorders ..MDD - Anxiety - DID - PTSD - with BPD traits - diagnosed since 2003 - had mulitiple hospitalizations - was on many different medicines - been through DBT - CBT i was just beginning - My treatment had to end suddenly in January because just could not afford treatment anymore. So now it is July and my symptoms are horrible - so what i do now is lay down when my brain is racing with scrarey thoughts and wait for feelings to pass - i pray and wait - sometimes all day - some days run into each other but its all i can do. I dont know how long i can get by like this without help but so far i am ok. Is this healthy?

Hello Free -- Welcome to Psych Central. I do not have any credentials to tell you what is healthy and what is not. I hope you will be able to find the support you need here and elsewhere.

thanks for your reply and for your honesty

I can't tell you what is healthy either, but I CAN tell you what I would do if in your situation.... If the symptoms are "horrible", then I would go to my psychiatrist right away. You just don't have to live with symptoms that you can't handle. There are alternatives, for me the alternative is medication for the rest of my life. I am not afraid of that. It helps get my horrible symptoms under control! Take care...

thanks for your reply schizoidwoman - i did make an appointment but having to wait 6 weeks for appt. on meds - i just need something for anxiety - all other drugs i was put on like antidepressants and haldol only made things worse for me. i just need something to stop the racing fearful thoughts and i think i will be ok. . until then all i can do is close my eyes and try to hang on. .its very hard.

Have you tried natural herbs, free1? Assuming you are not on any meds now...it would be ok to try them. There are calming herbs, like lavender and camomile, that might help some. Talk to a health food store professional and see what they think.

TC

Sky ~ no i have never tried herbs before - i dont really understand them enough really. i have thought about it before though - just didnt know which ones did what.
are you talking as in teas? i know chamomille (sp?) is in tea not sure how to do lavender..
thanks for your reply

Well, lavender is great in hot tubs Things to calm you.

What about "mindless" or "mindful" music? (Guess it's how you look at it.) They have tones that blend and cause you to quit thinking about all the clutter of daily living.

Talk to the health food store people... they know much more than I do on this.

Sky ~ lavender in hot tubs sounds great!
~~music sounds good too~~~
off to buy hot tub

I know what you mean about trying to pay for all the bills!

I'd suggest looking for community health centers or organizations in your area that provide services at low costs or free of charge. They can help find solutions to the money situation.

I sure wish complete health care was provided to everyone in the states.

timedinker ~ thanks for your input ~ i have an appt with pdoc and therapist in a few weeks ~ hopefully i wll get something for the anxiety ~ yes i agree that healthcare in our country needs a wake up call and great changes made!
people ... human beings ... are suffering greatly for lack of total healthcare provision. America is Great just dont you dare get sick there!!

haldol could be a problem. i had nasty anxiety from haldol before along with other side effects and had to be taken off of it.