[hereiam]

Is it stupid? Yes. But I don't care.

My dog went missing, a dog I've had for 8 years since I was just a kid. He's the perfect dog, literally. House broken, smart as a whip, loved to curl in your lap and lick your face. He never barked unless it was to warn us, never ran away unless it was to chase something in the backyard, loved people and loved whoever was in front of him at the time the most.

And most of all, when I had a terrible horrible no good very bad day - he was always there waiting for me, wagging his tail and smiling. He always seemed to know when I was upset or sad, angry or miserable. He'd hop into my bed and curl beside me, silently comforting me with his unspoken words.

Is it stupid? Yes. But I don't care.

Somehow he got out. Somehow, this time, he didn't make it home. He's been gone since Saturday afternoon, and while I've put an ad in the paper, posted fliers, searched high and low on foot and in car, I just cant seem to find him. I pray that someone took him in and will bring him to the pound, he's microchipped so that should let whoever scans him know that he's someones pet. The problem is, Bingo is such a damn good dog I'm afraid someones just going to keep him.

And I feel so guilty for letting him go. The hurt in my Moms voice when I told her.

And me? When I first knew he was missing, I cried. Once. Maybe twice a real cry. Now? Nothing. I can't do it. If I start I might not be able to stop. Or maybe I can't start at all.

Is it stupid? Yes. But I don't care.

Or, do I? Hell, I don't know cause apparently I just can't seem to muster up anything but anger and frustration toward myself for letting him go. I'm mad that I don't feel anything for his loss. And for that, I want to cut.

Is it stupid? Yes. I wish I cared.

[jetblackaura]

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I'm sure he'll come back eventually somehow or other. I wish it didnt hurt so much but I know how horrible it feels when your pet goes missing. I hope you can realise that it's not your fault and i hope you get Bingo back soon..

Take care
Claire

[silver_queen]

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I'm so sorry. Its terrible to lose someone who is special to you. I wish you comfort.

[h0kie]

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I'm so sorry your dog got out. Unfortunately, those things happen. I will keep hoping that he returns...

My cousin's dog went missing last year...we think someone took her. A neighbor's dog was also mysteriously missing. It was very alarming. Dognapping! I hope your dog comes back...you're in my thoughts.

[BamaSurvivor]

It's not stupid at all, yes. (((yes))) I hope your dog returns soon... I know how painful it can be to lose your bestfriend. I had a dog for 12 years (since I was 5) and he passed away last year... I went through miserable pain over his death and greived a lot, but old age caught up with him. I wish you much comfort.

[hereiam]

I just wish I knew if he was dead or alive...

[wisewoman]

It is so not stupid. Bingo is your best friend. Know that the pain is real, and reach out to everyone you can think of to see if he has been found. Visit your pounds a lot because they don't always put 2 and 2 together. Good luck. <y pets are the world and believe me, you are far from stupid.

[hereiam]

Found him.

[ktp]

Good for you! I'm so glad you found your pet.

I'm so happy for you.

*hugs*
Kimberly.

[silver_queen]

That's great, yes! I'm so glad you found your dog! You both must be so pleased to be reunited .

[jetblackaura]

Thats so good that you found him...i'm glad for you two. I hope you feel better now

[hereiam]

Heh, ya'll rock! Best part was that I didn't cut no matter how upset I got. Thanks for everyones support.

[silver_queen]

You're welcome! I'm so glad you got your dog back, and it's awesome you didn't hurt yourself either! You're going to have to reward yourself for that