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Apr 15, 2005, 05:42 PM
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I have been through a lot in the last few months. The only thing I "know" how to do to cope was SI (different forms). I have never really told anyone over the years that I do these things. There were summers that it was around 90 and I was wearing a sweatshirt, my "special" sweatshirt. I always wore this one whenever I cut on myself. That was the way I did it for the longest time. Then my folks found out about it and whenever I wear sweatshirts I had to show them my arms. Then I started cutting my legs and My mom saw me when I jumped out of the shower. Now I will take extra pills to find comfort and rest. On a daily basis I take 900 Lithium perscribed and 800 Seroquel, then I will take up to 900 extra of Seroquel. It's like it makes all the sadness and memories just seem like it was a bad dream. I don't want to deal with it. I just want it to go away. I hate the nightmares that I have at night and I hate the triggers that I go through everyday. I really don't know anyway else to cope.
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Apr 15, 2005, 06:22 PM
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Welcome. i am sorry that drugs and cutting are your only options you can think of. Have you tried a crisis hotline? Do you have a support system? I wish you luck and hope to keep seeing your posts.
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Apr 15, 2005, 06:49 PM
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((((((((((Kathy)))))))))) Those are safe hugs if you want them. 1st, welcome to PC. I hope you find the support you want/need here. 2nd, I'm sorry as well that these coping mechs are the only ones you feel you have. Are you in therapy? Do you have meds? I think these things might help. I was hesitant at first, but they've changed my life in such a short period of time. I wish you the best.
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Apr 15, 2005, 07:27 PM
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ww I have tried them, but they have fell short to what I call "my measuring up" currently I am seeing a pDoc and I am hoping that works out thank you for showing your concern.
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Apr 15, 2005, 07:31 PM
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good luck
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#6
Apr 15, 2005, 07:32 PM
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Ry, I am on 900 of Lithium and 800 of seroquel and sometimes I take up to 900 mg EXTRA of seroquel. I try my hardest to try and stick with someone. I have these high standards that "real" people have to measure up to in "real" life. I try not to listen, but they don't let me. Thank you for showing your concern and replying to my post. I also accept the "hugs". It good to know that there are "people" out there that care enough to kinda say so.so (((((((((((((ryan)))))))))))))) back at you.
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#7
Apr 15, 2005, 07:36 PM
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I love you siggy. It says exactly what I feel in the first sentance
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Apr 15, 2005, 11:33 PM
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(((((((Kathie)))))))
I've been there. Cutting is like the gateway SI. I started on my arms, it got to obvious so I moved to my legs. I was found out. After that you find more secretive ways to "cope" and it can just get worse and worse. I'd od on pills every day for weeks at a time so I could think of something else (throwing up at the time) than what was causing me to do this. As much as you don't want to deal with whatever you're feeling, it'll get worse. It helps to talk, even if not to a doc. (I don't) Just someone to listen and not judge, someone you trust. Not always a doc, wasn't for me. That's my 2 cents, and if you won't take that, please take my hugs at least. Best luck.. Kayleigh
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Apr 16, 2005, 12:08 AM
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(((((((((((((Kayleigh)))))))))))))))))))))))
I will definitly take not only your hug, but also your words of wisdom (i'm trying to type through the tears). No one has ever said anything like that or even remotely close as what you just said to me. Thank You So Very Much. |
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#10
Apr 16, 2005, 09:59 PM
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Wow, thank you. I've never had that kind of response, the kind that makes me feel better too. Thank you..
(((((Kathie))))) Kayleigh
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Your memory is a monster; you forget - it doesn't. It simply files things away. It keeps things for you, or hides things from you - and summons them to your recall with a will of its own. You think you have a memory; but it has you. -John Irving |
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#11
Apr 16, 2005, 10:23 PM
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I think that is what we are here for is to help each other feel better in some way.
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#12
Apr 17, 2005, 02:53 AM
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((((((((((Kathie)))))))))))
Welcome. You are most welcome to talk here as much as you want. We're good listeners.  Helping each other feel better is really good, because if I can help someone feel better, it doesn't only help them. It helps me too.Rap
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“We should always pray for help, but we should always listen for inspiration and impression to proceed in ways different from those we may have thought of.” – John H. Groberg 
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Apr 17, 2005, 03:10 AM
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</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
I think that is what we are here for is to help each other feel better in some way. </div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> yep . . . that's DocJohn's forums at its best, folks!!!!
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#14
Apr 17, 2005, 03:11 PM
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Thanks Rapunzel. I'm glad that I can talk freely here and there are people who won't judge me because I'm "sick".
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