(trigger) question

I totally need some help and advice with the issue. I have been cutting myself on and off and I totally want to stop. I hope it isn't many questions There are times when I have the urge that I get so upset with myself that I want to cut my throat area. I know it sounds suicidal. I dont want to end my life I want the pain of thought go away. If I cut my throat isn't it like cut a vain? As well how do I talk to my doctor about why I walked out. She is more like an APRN.
Thanks

I may not be the best person to be giving advice, but cutting yourself on your neck/throat area has to be extremely dangerous. For starters cutting is never a way to solve or even avoid your problems. Next to cut yourself where you are thinking about you would have to be looking into a mirror, or just cut blindly, either way the risk of accidentally slipping a tiny fraction, you say you don't want to kill yourself but you are proposing something that is at least as dangerous as Russian Roulette, using a razor instead of a gun.

Just an idea, if you do cut yourself there, you will most certainly end up in the emergency room, and from there to a mental hospital. Why not skip the cutting and the emergency room and get help NOW.

I hope that you can find the strength to reach out for help

I agree with Donna's response.

Can you just tell her why you walked out?

Cutting your neck is EXTREMELY dangerous. If you slip and hit your jugular vein, your chances of living will not be very good. I'm not trying to freak you out, but that's the reality of it.

Thanks for the help. The seceratary called and mention the doctor like to see me in a week and meds be changed. My prozac went up from 40mg to 60. I would reach out for help and my sissy wants me to go to the hosp before something bad happens
Thanks

I've helped several people with self injury issues in the Q&A section. One of the first things I recommend is reading the 'sticky posts' at the top of this forum - there are some very helpful tips on how to avoid hurting yourself. When you self injure, this releases endorphins(the same endorphins from exercise) - these endorphins give you a temporary relief from your mental pain.

The trick is finding good coping mechanisms that work for you. Exercise is a great way to get those endorphins flowing. You can also try holding ice cubes in your hands - this hurts like hell(LOL) and helps alot. You can also try writing on yourself with non-permanent marker.

I'm glad you're getting therapy because you want to get to the root of your pain. Instead of trying to mask your pain with more pain - it would be good if you just accept those thoughts and let them come, instead of trying to stop them. When you accept and deal with your painful issues then hopefully you won't hurt yourself anymore. I also recommend writing down your feelings in a journal. Best of luck and please be kind to yourself.