[leacon]

All I want to do now is close up and SI. I am finding it hard to express myself on the forums and areas I normally visit. I have been feeling very alone recently. My father is in the hospital and my mother is with him. My SI urges are going up, but I am fighting them because I seeing my pdoc tomorrow. I really do not want to tell him I SI yesterday. I already will need to tell him I SI on Saturday. I need to show some control here. All I want to do though is SI and see no one.

[billieJ]

Dear Lea ~ I'm sorry you are going through so much pain and fighting such urges right now. It's good that you have a t. Can you go to the phone and call someone? Dress and go outside? Involve yourself with a comedy show? Go to the "Laughter is the Best Medicine" Group at this forum and read everything they have posted there. It is HI-larious and will keep you involved for a couple of hours. Caring For YOU ~ billieJ

[beadlady29-old]

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hi lea,
beads old T teached us some way to cope with the SI feeligns when they is rely strogn. ONe of teh thigns that work teh goodest is this: get a fat ruberbadn ( not oen of teh flimsy oens u put in ur hair but a REAL ruberbadn)
adn slip it aruodn ur wrist. keep it their all teh tiem. when the need to SI hits u pull on that ruberbadn adn lwet go. it will buodnc bak offa ur writs adn u WILL feel it. u will feel it juts liek u 'feel it' wehn u SI. but u wotn rely be hutrign urself in a bad way.
beads just thunked her wuodl share taht wiht u. mabe it will help u get thru.
hang in their,
all of us beadys

p.s. wehn peoples see teh ruberbadn on ur writs adn make a dubm commetn like what's it their for, u can just tell them ur makeign a fashoin statement.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by leacon

I am finding it hard to express myself on the forums and areas I normally visit. I have been feeling very alone recently. My father is in the hospital and my mother is with him.

The above is probably causing your urges to SI? Do you want to talk more about this?