This is bad...the whole week has been like a waking nightmare of terror that I can't explain. I've started hearing voices outside my head again. There was a misundersatnding with my T so I'm reluctant to talk to him about this. Husband has been away all week and when he finally got back today, he starts yelling at me. There is no comfort to be found anywhere. Constant fear and terror. I can't get it to stop. I see no way out.
In the big scheme of things, it's really no big deal. It feels like the end of the world to me, though. I'll do anything to make this end.

[Miracle1986]

(((((Calista)))))
We are here for you.

[In_The_Darkness]

(((((Calista+12)))))

It's horrible when you have a breakdown in communication with your T. There are a lot of things to be misunderstood in therapy though and it's not yours or his fault - it happens unfortunately I can only imagine how it feels to be hearing these voices and not being able to confide in anyone aboout it

You could perhaps try writing down what you mean or what's on your mind so you can use all descriptive language techniques and then hand that to your T - he/she may understand you more than. I haven't tried it but it has been recommended to me.

Stay Safe & Strong
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[phoenix7]

i dont know what happened wiht T can you talk about what happened to T and then if you sort that out talk about this?

Im sorry your husband is shouting at you that must be triggering -

if he shouts at you can you leave the room if he wont liste n to you - take yourself away to somewhere quiet if possible?

you need to talk to someone about this - if not your T do you have a pdoc? or a dr you can confide in?

please let us know how you are going

P7

[Sannah]

Hi Calista, sounds like you feel small with no options? There are other options, you can look at it differently. You can talk to your T. How did you respond to your husband when he started yelling?

Thanks everyone.
When my husband was yelling, at first I yelled back then I shut down. I tried to call T but he never got 3 phone calls, and only after I emailed him did he call back. He misunderstood everything I said to him. He thought I was threatening self harm. I was only desperate. I wrote down my explaination and emailed it to him. He didn't seem to understand where I was coming from. I was trying to be adult, and not cancel today's appointment cause I thought maybe we could talk and resolve things. He canceled because he hurt his back. I wonder if this is just the beginning of the end of therapy with him....
My p doc doesn't return calls for a few days, so she isn't really an option. When I called T the other day, I asked if additional meds could help. T said meds won't help and I should go to the ER. He has never been so cold or unhelpful before. This must mean something bad.

Originally Posted by Sannah

Hi Calista, sounds like you feel small with no options? There are other options, you can look at it differently. You can talk to your T. How did you respond to your husband when he started yelling?

Yes Sannah, very small....T isn't hearing me at all. I try to talk to him. It makes me feel invisable and wrong.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by Calista+12

When my husband was yelling, at first I yelled back then I shut down.

You got triggered????

I tried to call T but he never got 3 phone calls, and only after I emailed him did he call back. He misunderstood everything I said to him. He thought I was threatening self harm. I was only desperate. I wrote down my explaination and emailed it to him. He didn't seem to understand where I was coming from.

How long have you been with this T? Misunderstanding someone is common. It takes a lot of good communication to be understood.

He canceled because he hurt his back. I wonder if this is just the beginning of the end of therapy with him....

When I called T the other day, I asked if additional meds could help. T said meds won't help and I should go to the ER. He has never been so cold or unhelpful before. This must mean something bad.

You can determine if this T is a good T who will work well with you or not. How long have you been with him and do you have other options???

..........

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by Calista+12

Yes Sannah, very small....T isn't hearing me at all. I try to talk to him. It makes me feel invisable and wrong.

I can understand that feeling. It reminds us of when we were young......

Sannah
I've been a patient of his for about 15 year and known him for 20. He's always been great. He knows so much but not too much, if you know what I mean. He usually won't push his agenda on anyone.
I don't understand....Supposidly tomorrow I see him.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by Calista+12

He knows so much

but not too much, if you know what I mean.

He usually won't push his agenda on anyone.

So you could be more open with him and work on issues on a higher level? I got better by taking charge and doing the work with the help of my therapist. I didn't wait for the therapist to fix me........