Does anyone else...

Start cutting and when they don't feel it just keep going for the heck of it. Not because you need to do more (although sometimes it feels that way) but just keep going while you're bored and all of a sudden snap out of a trance like state and realize just how much you actually did? I don't know if what I said makes any sense at all, but does anyone else go through that or have a better way of explaining that?

<font color="#000088">You mean have you ever cut yourself and kept on doing it for awhile until stopping to realsing what you've done has made your arm string or bleed. Yes done it loads of times and it hurts after a long time. So now I'm trying to stop!

Well it's like last night I was really upset and finally gave in and started cutting on my ankle. After that it just didn't feel like it use to so I started on my stomach. I knew I was cutting a lot and I loved all the blood and played with it and made and filled in a heart on my stomach and spent awhile making it perfect and just playing around with the blood afterwards and drawing on myself with just what was there and was completely calm and sorta spaced out and then after that, all of a sudden it was like," WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE!!!!" Then I took a shower and cleaned up, and felt pathetic and mad at myself and that was it except for wondering if that happens to anyone else. I know my friend will start without even knowing she has and then afterwards realize she had a blade in her hand and was actually doing damage, but she has never realized begining it and not realized how much sha has done until the end.

<font color="#000088">Hate to tell you this. But when you start to cut sometimes you forget all your problems at that time and focuss on hurting yourself just because you are feeling emtremly down and hurt by someone else or yourself. Still I think that you are worth so much more. Can you drop the sharp object and step backwards one. For me or if not for me for yourself and loved ones. People do care about you maybe it doesn't seem like it. But it is true and your not alone. Still once you keep on doing it, you finally realise its do late to stop unless you drop the object your using to this. Keep your hands busy, wether its typing, writting, juggling or tapping on a table. If you feel the need to cut stop and think what will cutting do to make things much better. Nothing but more scars etheir to hide or show. If you enjoy pain the best way if to get ice and hold it in the blame of your hands for awhile. Then your have nothing to lookat and feel quilty about doing so. All draw lines on wether you feel like doing so maybe with a crapy red eye liner or washable pen. You still get the vision of it and feeling of it but less pain and marks. Infections are a risk to your skin. Your body wants to be loved not hurt. Take care of your body and your body will take care of you! (((((((((((((((ickydog2006)))))))))))))))

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Miss A...sometimes I think you underestimate. I do the ice trick but the pain doesn't last long enough. Red marker just triggers me and makes me really upset because I can't feel pain. I know how much pain it causes me and what hurts worse is the pain I know it causes the people who love me. I just can't quit though. I'm not that strong. I'm barely strong enough to keep myself alive, and that isn't even for the sake of me....it is because the ones who love me don't deserve that kind of punishment. This and meds are the only things that give me enough strength to stick with that view. I'm so scared to try and quit because of what the consequences might be. I do know the risks involved and I know at the rate I'm going this problem may kill me. But it is what is keeping me alive right now, so I'm willing to take that chance. All I want is my question answered, not reasons to quit, or helpful solution to quitting, trust me I've read all of them and tried almost all. I hope maybe this has brought you some understanding of me....

<font color="#000088">Sorry, I didn't mean to underestimate you, it's what I would normally do. But you can be strong there is another way. Get someone to help you. Talk to your friends and family will support you when you feel like doing so. Hold on.... I can't say anything else for now and it proberly won't help you at all. But I will stay with you if you want me too. You've done nothing wrong. Tell me have you've been under alot of presure lately?

<font color="#000088">Click on the following link down below:

http://www.nottingham.ac.uk/counsell...s/selfharm.pdf

Some useful information, that I think will help you and others. Please read it and also you have to have arcobat reader 7.0. It's a PDF file, make sure you save a copy!