I did it.

I scheduled an appointment with a therapist. In a little over a week I've had two SI episodes...it's pretty obvious I DO NOT have control like I thought I did. On top of that I've been drinking way more then I should. I'm hoping this is the right step...I'm just nervous the therapist I chose won't be the right fit...idk.

And I'm concerned. When you schedule an appointment, they ask you why you are coming in. I just had to say something general, depression and anxiety over finding a job. But the real reason is my self harm. I don't want to tell the receptionist that who takes my information...you know? Plus, I read all these profiles about therapists, and they never say anything about self injury. I wish the subject would be brought out in the light more. It's a symptom for something deeper, just like an eating disorder or drug abuse. Why don't we get the same recognition?

good job! that's so good for you to be asking for the help you need. i hope it goes well.

i know it's so hard to find a therapist that's a good fit, at least in my experiences. i've tried to go to multiple therapists but never go back after the first appt or after the first few. it's frustrating. i agree, i wish there was a better way to know who will actually be helpful. i can relate to your concerns! i really do hope it goes well. i wish it were easier to talk about SI issues. it's still so stigmatized.

i'm impressed. way to go! you've taken a great step toward wellness!

I'm so happy to hear this Kati. Please keep us posted.

I don't know if I believe it the "right step" but it is a BIG STEP in the right direction.

I know it couldn't have been easy, I'm so VERY PROUD of you for reaching down and finding the sterength to do this.

And if the therapist isn't a good fit for you, then find another one until you find one that you do connect with.

I'm really at a loss for words at the moment.... YEA YOU!!! is as close as I can come to expressing how I feel about this

Awesome! I hope all goes well!!

Good for you, Katileena.

Well I had my first session. I was feeling rather hungover from drinking last night, and when I'm in that state all of my anxiety about what I should or should not say is gone. So I was very, very honest and straight forward about my issues. I don't think I've ever been that honest when talking to a therapist.

And as far as I can tell, the therapist I picked is a perfect match. He specifically studied college age adults in school and is interested in how the college years develop mental health issues in adults, as it is not until 21 years old that the brain is fully developed. I'm so relieved he seems like such a good fit. On top of that I told him right away about my self injury, and he told me self injury is a stress reliever, something we do to let go of something. I was so happy he realized this. I have been to therapists before who would instantly jump to "are you trying to kill yourself" conclusion. It was so frustrating.

I have another appointment next Monday. I'm so glad I found this place! They even have flexible payment, sessions are only $35 and you don't have to pay it all at once if you cannot afford it. This is sooooo great!

Wow, this is so great Kati!!!!

that sounds so nice. i'm happy for you. i hope it keeps going well. i'd be interested to hear if it continues to be helpful, if you are willing to share.

Good for you, Katileena. Wishing you the best.