[hereiam]

I've quit SI for about 3 months. However, now more than ever I've been thinking about it. At night, when I'm alone, and theres no one around...it just creeps into my head. How easy it would be, how much better I could feel, how fun and intense it would be...nasty things like that.

Should I see a T about this? I used to see one, but left for school (plus it was pretty much useless), and I haven't been back since. We never talked about my SI, or anything even remotely close to it. I think I've been making some progress considering I've been working extremely hard on keeping a positive attitude, recognizing that the world won't end just because I didn't do something the perfect/right way, etc etc. But those are things I've been teaching myself.

I'm trying to teach myself that SI isn't a way to cope, and that it's wrong, and that I shouldn't do it because it hurts many more people than just me, but it doesn't seem to stick the way it is for everything else. The battle is uphill. I know that, and I'm continuing to resist all and any urges. I don't plan on cutting.

However, should I still see a T about all of this? I mean, just the fact that I used to, do you think I can get past all this without a T? It seems harder and harder, but I really want to do this on my own. I don't like T's, they make me all kinds of nervous and almost seem to make it worse.

Thanks for any input...

[Rapunzel]

Yeah, I think you should find a good therapist. It sounds like the one you saw before didn't get the job done, maybe because s/he wasn't a good match for you, maybe because you weren't ready, or maybe some other explanation. But if you still keep thinking about hurting yourself, and you are asking yourself whether you should see a therapist, that tells me that there is something there, and it would probably help you to get some help with dealing with it. Sometimes it just takes more than one try. You deserve to be happy and whole and free of this junk. Therapy isn't comfortable. It's scary to have to face the things that SI has helped us to avoid facing. But it's worth it once you do.

you saw a therapist before when you were SI'ing so I think you already know the answer but here it is YES you should go but not because I tell you, you should (it is so much easier to do things if someone else tells us to isn't it) but because you already know what you need for you.

hereiam you should speak to a therapist, you know in your heart of hearts that you need to speak to one before your current situation regresses back to 3 months ago when you were stil SI'ing.

[bipolar_bear]

Congratulations on your 3 months free of SI. That alone is an accomplisment. But, I think you should see a therapist as quickly as you can to keep going forward. SI is addictive coping mechanism and it would be a shame should you regress. I think this is very hard to overcome by yourself. Obviously you need to make your own decision but since you asked our opinion I really think you should concider seeing someone before you utilize your SI coping mechanism. Please take care of yourself and good luck whatever your decision may be.

[CompGeek]

If I were you I think that I would see a therapist at your school... Im pretty sure that alot of schools (I know mine does) offers free therapists to help you with whatever you want. Most of them will just talk to you to, if you don't want to talk directly to the therapist about SI/cutting than maybe you could talk to him/her about ways to help preventing it...

Hope this helps,
-Jason