[cryingchild]

Do I ever want to quit harming myself? I am not sure to tell you the truth. It is my main coping mechanism. If I can't cry, what else am I to do? I hit people, I harm myself, and I write.
I have been SIing an awful lot the past few weeks. My cuts are getting deeper and I have had to use butterfly closures more. I used to cut this bad when I was 16 or 17. I am reverting back to it and it scares me.

[PlanningtoLive]

Hi Crying.....I've asked myself the same question the last few weeks. I can't get upset or break everything in sight like I want to........so I cut.

Nothing much helps either to distract me. My T has wanted me to try other things, like going for a walk, etc. I've done it, come back and still cut.

My legs are so badly cut up that pants rub on them and cause lots of pain. I can't wear nightshirts to bed anymore because my legs show. Thank goodness it isn't summer.

I can't say for sure that I wish to stop either. I'm sorry that you are cutting deeper - that isn't good. Do you go to a T? If so, would it help to tell that person? I hate to see you do serious injury to yourself.

Please let me know if there is anything I can do.........I listen well, btw.

Mary Alice