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Oct 09, 2010, 12:28 AM
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Today, after 6 months of beautifully closed (and relatively scar free) skin, I fell back into SI. My T's reaction this time was both different and shockingly helpful. She actually gave me "permission" to do it again if I needed it. Obviously she was not saying "I think you should do it again" and obviously we talked about it and she offered me other options and she was very aware of what was going on that triggered it. But she didn't shame me, make me feel guilty, forbid me to continue, insist that i "throw out my blades" and that was really cool of her. That allowed me to focus on the pain that triggered the behavior rather than the behavior which is a symptom of the pain. It was a really healing reaction. I'm still feeling unstable and at kind of at risk, but I feel heard. I feel really, really heard. All I can say is thank god for my awesome T.
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Oct 09, 2010, 12:40 AM
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WOW - I think that was most helpful that she responded to you as a human instead of 'going by the book' or something.
Wow - 6 months that's awesome. I'm not writing this lightly but I want to say some time we fall back, but we can always get up again. Every seen that movie "what about bob" says take baby steps. Well one step back sometimes can lead to several steps forward.
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Oct 09, 2010, 04:18 AM
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This is great!!
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Oct 09, 2010, 10:36 AM
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I'm so glad your T's response was helpful.
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Oct 11, 2010, 02:01 AM
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i wish i could say its kept me from continuing. its such an addictive behavior.
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Oct 11, 2010, 02:02 AM
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i know ill stop when im ready. i just hope i dont start again after that.
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Oct 11, 2010, 02:03 AM
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god i just dont even know who i am anymore
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Oct 11, 2010, 02:32 AM
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Quote:
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Oct 11, 2010, 03:19 PM
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(((((((((((might)))))))))))
I hope that everything is going okay for you! 
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Oct 14, 2010, 07:58 PM
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update: just got out of hospital. 5150. cool. feeling a lot better. t is still so good.
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Oct 14, 2010, 08:20 PM
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Might- I'm glad that you are feeling better and that you found your hospital stay to be productive.
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Oct 14, 2010, 08:52 PM
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I hope you are doing okay. It sounds like your T's response is really helpful.
My T had the same accepting attitude towards my self-harm. It helped a lot because when I want to do it, I think, "I'll do it...and then talk to T about why, about the feelings under it. So maybe I should just wait and talk to T." I still often want to do it, but I can manage without it now because I know we will talk about the real issue. Acceptance and compassion are wonderful things. |
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Dec 16, 2010, 02:55 AM
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Wow this sounds like the best reaction I have ever heard from a T. I'm glad that it helped you out, and that the T really seemed to know how to make you both feel better and to heal better.
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