it's whatever

if SI is going to make me feel better,calm me down after days of horrible thoughts and no escape from life and horrable people why not .i just dont care any more i am so tired

Who are the horrible people?

right now it seems like just about everyone .it staarted with people at work and then my farther and then my husband,the mother and now it is just everyone in general.i just feel like everyone in my life is just horrible.i know it is me and i am totally overwelmed and very tired right now but these feelings are so strong.work sucks my farther told me i am hatefull,the mother is on my case but throwing money her way shut her up.and worse is i was so upset i was just yelling about it all and my husband said yell at the people you have a problem with not me!!i was rendered speechless and just give up i hate me.

god i just feel like i need to apologise to the world for exsisting and for taking up space and time i have so many people who say they care and i still do this so mant people who have life so worse than me.and i do this I AM SORRY.

Don't hate yourself over what others do, it's not your fault. Some people s*** and if they know they are getting to you they will do it even more. Ignore them or laugh at them, this takes the fun out of it for them.

It's hard with co-workers but if you're able to remove yourself from the others they won't be able to get to you. Let them say and do what they want to you, and even if it hurts you will see it may subside if you laugh about it.

Surround yourself with people who care and shut the others out. Try not to care about what "others" opinions of you are, it's only their opinion and not a fact. I know what it's like when you feel the world hates you and they'll soon move on to someone else.

Some people are just haters who are bored with their lives. Laugh at them, no matter what they do or say. Remember; What goes around comes around. Maybe you should take a couple of days off to go away and get some rest by yourself?

As far as your husband goes, the only thing you can really do is say "hey, sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you. I'm just having a bad day"...then walk away. He'll get over it.

right now it seems like just about everyone .it staarted with people at work and then my farther and then my husband,the mother and now it is just everyone in general.i just feel like everyone in my life is just horrible.i know it is me and i am totally overwelmed and very tired right now but these feelings are so strong.work sucks my farther told me i am hatefull,the mother is on my case but throwing money her way shut her up.and worse is i was so upset i was just yelling about it all and my husband said yell at the people you have a problem with not me!!i was rendered speechless and just give up i hate me.

It's okay granite. You are dealing with so much within that it is totally understandable how things would be difficult on the outside too. Do you want to talk about what is going on at work? I'm sorry that your husband didn't have any patience. Can you tell him how what he said affected you? Do you have to interact with your parents?

(((Granite))) - thinking of you my friend xx