Five Weeks Without...

Five weeks without cutting is about soon to be forgotten and abandoned. I will have to start over soon. I don't want replies saying "No come on you can do this" because I can't right now and I don't want to right now. I just want to give in and do it because it's so much easier that way. Yes, I no I'm weak and useless and pathetic. And I hate myself for it. But there's no other way right now.

Tamzin, there is no way I will ever see you as weak, useless or pathetic. What I do see is someone who is hurting badly right now. I can so understand the wanting to do something because it is easier to do it than fight it. I'm not going to tell you not to cut. I'd like to ask you to try to hold on for five minutes more and see then if you still really want to cut.
Don't hate yourself. You have too many positive characteristics to do that to yourself. Read through some of the great threads you have started here and try to see those positive things for yourself.
Whatever you decide, that's OK. I just would like to think you would be able to be kind to yourself and allow yourself to see your good points.
Caroline

*hugs* sorry to hear you feel this way, please be safe.

There are many other ways.

Good luck with your choice, I hope everything turns out alright.

I am sorry you are in this place right now. I hope you consider all your alternatives prior to cutting but I can understand where you are coming from. Good luck on making such a hard decision.

((((((((((tamzinrose))))))))!!!

It hurts for me to sit here & rip yourself apart this way.

I don't know how long you have been "into" SI, but you must remember that it is an "addiction" just like booze or anything else. It's an "escape" It's to "vent, blow out steam,coping skill" Not saying it's a great one, but it's a release for you, as with me.

Just because you made a mistake, doesn't mean YOU ARE ONE! Put the club down, girl! It doesn't make you weak, pathetic and/or useless. I will NOT allow you to say about yourself, and do you know why???

After 8 years of NO SI, I "relapsed" & started carving again. I don't what triggered mine..........how about you?
It ALWAYS has a trigger. I came to forum today b/c I was feeling like you today. I just wanted to tell everyone to stick their "wonderful advice" up north...sweetly & gently.

You and I do have a choice....I've been arm-wrestling myself all morning b/c I got paid today & my DH has every sharp blade in this house...I was thinking.......you know what I was thinking

It's been around 3 weeks for me. I came here to post my decision, then realized when I read your post, yours was here for a reason.......now, it's an indecision. I don't know about you but I am NOT weak, I'm not "that pathetic" &
I have been depressed, so yeah...I've kinda been useless...otherwise, I don't think this was mere chance.......do you believe in fate? dayzee9 PM me if you feel like venting!

Glad I could help, and yeah I do believe in fate. Thanks for the offer, I think I may have to PM you sometime.

Ok...I think it's time I bumped this up again. Fresh urges, fresh post.

Wow, I'm a grand member, and I'm feeling kinda low at the moment, so I figured I'd add to this.

I feel so ignored. By everyone. I'm not noticeable at all. I don't mean anything to anyone. I could just disappear and no one would notice for weeks. *Sigh* I'm so pathetic. Sorry everyone.

I notice you, and I miss you when you are not around. You matter.

C

Thanks. It's good to know I matter to you.

OMG I am NOT COPING! Right now I am a mess and a wrecka dn OMG I just wanna cut SO BAD!

Hang in there, Tamzin. I notice you too. You matter to a lot of people around here, and I'll bet you anything you matter to people in 3-D that you're not aware of too.

((((((((Tamzin))))))))))

I know it is tough.

Remember this:
How can you eat an elephant?




One bite at a time.

Take it gently, just try to focus on the next task.
((((((tamzinrose))))))

Caroline

It got all the way to 8 weeks without before I blew it. I was actually quite proud of myself for lasting that long. I'll start over again on the quitting thing soon.