[granite1]

i cant sleep and my head is just spinning with all kinds of thoughts and horrible things.i hate when ii get this way.it hasn't really been this bad in a while .i hate when i try so hard and still cant make sense of my thoughts and clear my head.i haven't had T in about 2 weeks and will see T Monday and then another break.i hate her these days.I'm quite sure she feels the same.i feel like i am starting to get out of control again.and i am scared because i just can't have this happen right now.i am going away for a bit next week,work is insane do to the upcoming holidays.my T is gone more than here,and i really feel like i am starting to loose it.a recipe for me to SI.i am trying really hard not to because i am going away with my friend and i don't want to have to explain and have her worry.i don't know what to do i just see this huge wave comming and worried i cant avoid it

[Can't Stop Crying]

Hang in there Granite! Sounds like a lot of stress right now...that would trigger me to SI too. Keep fighting the urge.

Can you see another T? If she is gone more than there, that leaves a lot of time for you to handle things on your own. Maybe you need more support than she is giving you?

You are in my thoughts!

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by granite1

i cant sleep and my head is just spinning with all kinds of thoughts and horrible things.

These thoughts need to be worked through then?

Originally Posted by granite1

i haven't had T in about 2 weeks and will see T Monday and then another break.i hate her these days.I'm quite sure she feels the same.

I'm sure that she doesn't feel the same! Are these breaks with T causing some of your thoughts that are distressing you right now?

Originally Posted by granite1

work is insane do to the upcoming holidays.

What percentage of this ^ is causing your distress?

Will going away with your friend help?

[granite1]

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

Hang in there Granite! Sounds like a lot of stress right now...that would trigger me to SI too. Keep fighting the urge.

Can you see another T? If she is gone more than there, that leaves a lot of time for you to handle things on your own. Maybe you need more support than she is giving you?

You are in my thoughts!

i dont know.probibly not i wouldnt talk to another T anyway.i usually do ok i just tend to SI not try to kill myself or anything

[granite1]

Originally Posted by Sannah

These thoughts need to be worked through then?


I'm sure that she doesn't feel the same! Are these breaks with T causing some of your thoughts that are distressing you right now?


What percentage of this ^ is causing your distress?

Will going away with your friend help?

hi sannah. i dop try to write these thjoughts in my journal.i hate mornings they just seem to be so bad these days.this morning was bad i hope tonight will be better.

i am sure my T being gone isnt helping.usually i dont care but it seems like i do with her i dont understand why .i dont talk to her or anything.i got so upset when she told me about her not being thare.

work is just really busy and makes me so tired