[darkmood]

Iam a idiot I cut today I cut my arm and one of my breast I just wish
this would all end I hate myself for cutting iam nothing but a useless piece of **** who wishes she was not here anymore

[Sanada]

Originally Posted by darkmood

Iam a idiot I cut today I cut my arm and one of my breast I just wish
this would all end I hate myself for cutting iam nothing but a useless piece of **** who wishes she was not here anymore

ditto darkmood, i cut too, i regret and i'm happy(?). I dont understand yet why i do it. Darkmood you are not alone, neither am i, but you/i deff have a place on this earth. We are here to find out the questions,
, ansewers are painful though, but they make us stronger. I relapsed last night(cutting), i/we will one day know why. Lots of Loves. Sanada. x

[darkmood]

the cuts i made do not hurt on my arm but the others sting I deserve to feel the pain even though it is not bad i feel like doing it again and i think i will stupid me if my sleeve goes up you will see the cuts Iam going to do my private area next sorry if i upset anyone

[SoupDragon]

Cutting can help - it can release endorphins that help to soothe, as with many coping strategies that we have learned to help us survive, the immediate effects mean that we want to repeat the behaviour, to get that relief, despite the fact that we feel guilty later on.

My T checks with me occasionally whether I still SI, but has never told me to stop as my T has said it is the way that I know to cope and if that is taken away I will just be left with the bad feelings and not knowing how to deal with them.

However you do not deserve to feel the pain, nor so you deserve to have faced whatever it was that led you to wanting to cut yourself in the first place. Healing takes time, but I have faith that it will happen.

[Sanada]

[quote=darkmood;1848405]Iam a idiot I cut today I cut my arm and one of my breast I just wish
this would all end I hate myself for cutting iam nothing but a useless piece of **** who wishes she was not here anymore[/quoteI ]hi darkmood, you are not an idiot. ok. It was nice chatting to you today, breifly. Its no crime to be in pain of our reflections. I look in the mirror, and i like what i see( interms of my emotinal self), i feel pain inside, but i cannot hate myself. I cut too, you know that maybe. I do it because of confusion maybe, maybe because its a part of me, whatever it is that triggers, i dont really know, all i know is, that it is. I'm not an idiot, i'm not worthless, "neither are you", we are both humans who should be loved, we are (i think here at p.c), no, "i" know we are here at P.C. Take care Darkmood. loves. sanada.x

[Xeneon]

Your not a a idiot!!! Its a addiction, your addicted. SIing is something easy to be addicted too. I use to burn my arm and I burned in the same areas all the time. I have not cut for one in a half years. You can stop too but it takes time. I didn't just one day say I'm going to quit. I hope on day you will be able to put down the blade and stop hurting yourself but don't ever think your a idiot. I wish you the best of luck.

[thine_self_untrue]

My heart goes out to you, darkmood. Please believe that you are not as worthless as you feel.