Alone

It's New Year's Eve, the most social of holidays
Yet I sit here

Alone

No one calls,
Not Mom,
Not my sisters
Not My children.

Alone

Not even the members of my church,
they don't know I'm here anymore.

Alone

I have no friends
who wonder what I'm doing
or how I'm feeling.

If I did, they would avoid me so I couldn't tell them.

Alone

Why has my life come to this?
I thought that I had done evrything I could....
Being there for others,
Helping them through hard times

But I have disappeared from view.
Out of mind, Out of sight!
Out of sight, Out of mind!

Davey you have everyone here to spend new years eve with. I have no one with me to spend either so here i will spend it. You have not went out of mind here. I am sure if u took a leave for a few weeks someone will post in general weres DaveyJones. Beleive me we care.
We care alot about you.

I'm sorry that you feel abandonned. We are here for you but I know it is not the same. I know you would like someone close to you. Maybe you could make a call to someone. Maybe some people you know also feels alone right now. I'm just trying to help here. I'm so sorry you are alone.

((((((((((((DaveyJones))))))))))))

((((((((((((((DaveyJones))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you are alone tonight. We are here for you. I think it is a good idea to call someone yourself rather than wait on them. I have been alone on this day many times and I know how sad that can be. Please be assured that you are in my mind tonight the best I can offer right now. Happy New Year my friend.

Davey, can you think of anyone else who just might be sitting at home alone waiting for someone to call them? You could be the person who makes their new year's eve just a little bit less lonely. And you've got us. I see we have people in chat and on the forums, so we're all here together.

I'm alone of course because of circumstances of my own making...I understand that. I don't deserve any sympathy, though I do appreciate all your concern and love. If I hadn't completely screwed up my life time after time after time, I wouldn't be in this mess.

I don't know what I would do without you all here.

Oh, look!!! Only 2 more minutes in this effed up year! Yay!

{{{{{{Davey}}}}} Here's to hoping 2006 is better to you =)

I care!
I hope 2006 is a much better year for you my friend...
Peace, love and blessings from the cave,
Fuzzy

I think that sometimes life is not just the way it is purely b/c of you 'messing it up' or creating your own circumstances... things happened, you had your reasons, you may have learned something... the point is, you're trying to deal now the best you can and you have made great strives and hopefully one day, this day won't seem like such a huge burden anymore... new year's can feel quite lonely even if you are surrounded by people, and even if you would have doen everything 'right', who's to say new year's would be any better? it's still anxiety provoking, depressing, stressful, and if you ask around, more than enough people are just trying to get it over with... I hope that the other 363 days won't be the same, at least not w/ the same amount of pressure...

{{{{{DJ}}}}}

You're one of my bestest buddies on PC! I still think the media puts WAY too much emphasis on how Christmas and New Years should be....NOW I'm inundated by Valentine's stuff when I venture into the grocery store.

Even though I stayed home last night voluntarily (mainly because I feel too ill to dress up and do anything) I've been in a "thinking about the past" too much lately and, in retrospect, *almost* wished my former husband and I had not divorced.

I know it's not the same to receive a virtual hug when we all need some RL hugs....but this is the best I can do right now: {{{{{{DaveyJones}}}}}}

My PM door is always open. BTW - does anyone ever go into the chat room? Most every time I'm here, no one is. I would enjoy chatting real time.

(((((DJ)))))
I'm sorry you're lonely.
I am here for you AT ANY TIME. I know I'm not right there with you, but I'll do the best I can. You are loved here.

Love ya, Jenn

(((((((((((((((((((DJ))))))))))))))))))))) I hope that the New Year is starting out better than the last one ended. I am here for you should you feel lonely. You are cared for here.