[puzzclar]

After months of SI, and being completely down, I finally feel like myself. This is huge. I play a lot of instruments, and I want to play them. When I was a kid, I used to rearrange my room every few months, and I rearranged it again. I feel like me, I don't want to sit down and watch T.V. for very long....

The only issue is I'm almost afraid it wont last, and all be into the si again. The question is, will this last? SI is an addiction for me, will I ever want it again to keep other thoughts at bay?

Please let this last.... but how do I get over the urges if they come? What's a good way to cope with those thoughts? Any ideas?

Hello puzzclar,

I think it's great that you are feeling more like yourself. I can understand why you might be worried about the good times not lasting...I worry about this too! What helps me is to remember to take things one day at a time, knowing that the only thing I can experience is the present moment. I am not in control of tomorrow, so I will not worry about it. Sometimes it is tough, but it has proven useful for me to live in the now, not the "what if".

[Sanada]

Hey Puzzclar.
In april (2011), when I found this site I never thought I would make it to october with no s/i.
Something changed back then and I was terrified that I would lose the will/strenth to overcome an urge.
Since then I have had some of the toughest days of my life that I felt for sure would trigger. I got through it somehow with the help of a 'new feeling' (new feeling is also a very cool song by the 'talking heads').

Time was my greatest healer, the greater the distance in between an episode, the more control over an urge I had.

Keep feeling positive and good.
(p.s, i used to, and still do like to change my room around, as the old saying goes = tidy room = tidy mind)...

[Christina86]

Originally Posted by puzzclar

After months of SI, and being completely down, I finally feel like myself. This is huge. I play a lot of instruments, and I want to play them. When I was a kid, I used to rearrange my room every few months, and I rearranged it again. I feel like me, I don't want to sit down and watch T.V. for very long....

Yay for you. I'm happy that you feel better.

The only issue is I'm almost afraid it wont last, and all be into the si again. The question is, will this last? SI is an addiction for me, will I ever want it again to keep other thoughts at bay?

Always waiting for the "other shoe to drop" and for things to get bad again or the possibility that they will... are totally normal thoughts. Scary, but normal. Yes, SI is an addiction. But the thoughts can come and go and you don't need to act on them. You know what it feels like NOW to be happy, so you remember the feelings if you're ever faced with the urge again.

Please let this last.... but how do I get over the urges if they come? What's a good way to cope with those thoughts? Any ideas?

What have you done so far to deal with the thoughts and urges?? What has changed for the positive, what have you learned to help yourself?

[Sannah]

I agree with everyone who said to live in today right now!! Enjoy this time! Leave tomorrow for tomorrow.

[puzzclar]

thank you all, and I think I learned that I don't have to be down, or depressed. It was simple, I played my main instrument, Clarinet, for the first time in months, and it felt good. I want to play now, but I have Chem to work on and to study, but I know that I need a good break.

Time is never on my side. It seems like I'm always against it. I need to become more focused so I can add in exercise and learning new solos for clarinet. But time management is not easy for me. But I do know that by adding both it will be the way that will help me the most, and I believe that I will slowly replace the urges with positive things around my life.

I know know what to do to help myself overcome the urges and the anxiety around everyday life. I can do this now.... Managing my time, Ill get better at that... soon.