Is this still self injury?

When I feel down and can't take the negative emotions. I get something to strangle myself with. I don't cut myself often but I do sometimes scratch myself. With strangling myself, I'm not doing anything bad to my body. I might feel like light headed but I don't do it for a long time. I might do it for a few minutes. I feel better when I have strangled myself. It's like all these negative emotions go away. I deserve to be unhappy. People love to make me unhappy.

Oh happycheeks, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I don't think it really matters what label we give it, strangling yourself is not the healthiest way to deal with emotions. Thankyou for sharing that here, do you have a T who you can also talk too? You do not deserve to be unhappy, you matter alot. Please keep safe. Soup

Don't worry. I will be okay. I know it's not good because I might pass out or something bad might happen to me by accident. I don't have a T. I don't attend the sessions anymore. I used to go but I didn't feel like going anymore. But I guess I could talk to someone about it. I need to deal with my emotions in a good way, I might need to distract myself while I'm having these thoughts. I am safe. I won't do anything stupid. It's only thoughts. I don't mean what I say when I say I want to hurt myself. I feel embarrassed and stupid for saying that I strangle myself and hurt myself sometimes. I'm sorry for being pathetic

And you are definitely not pathetic - because if you are then that makes me pathetic too and I am practising this postive talk - in fact I think you were really brave to share this.

I don't have a diagnosis, T and I just concentrate on symptoms (that is when I am actually able to escape my dragon costume and talk to him) - but I have a DBT book and that does have some helpful stuff in there about dealing with emotions - not sure if you have come across it - will try and find it and post the title.

I think the very best way of dealing with emotions is to talk about them, I know for me when I am having a tough time, although T has asked me to call - I can't because I have a phone phobia type thing - but I do write and send T e-mails and it does help me to express it rather than hold it in.

Take care HC -

Thanks for your reply. I'm not pathetic then. I guess the healthy distraction for me would to chat to you or someone about my problems. It is nice to know that someone is there for me.

You might pass out and then not be able to stop strangling yourself and die. This is dangerous.

Is it your mother who is making you unhappy?

You deserve to be happy.

I don't do it for long to be able to hurt myself. My mother isn't making me unhappy at the moment. It's just other things getting to me.

I used to do this too after family found out about my s/h so I felt like I couldn't do it anymore so did that when I felt bad instead. For me I stopped doing it eventually, but only after I'd scared myself by half passing out and not being able to breathe. Please, I know that it seems like what you need to do, but please try not to, it's dangerous you could hurt yourself. Sannah's right you DO deserve to be happy! Is there anyone you can talk to irl about how your feeling if you don't want to go to sessions anymore ? If not a family member or friend or something? Xxx

Thanks for warning me. I guess I shouldn't hurt myself. I think I do have someone in irl that I can talk to.

If not feel free to pm anytime if you need to! I can really relate to you because it's something I did a lot not too far back ago, so I understand. How are you feeling now? Hope your in a slightly more positive mood! xxx

I am feeling fine at the moment. I am happy Yesterday I had a emotional rollercoaster ride I kept being sad, happy and then sad and then happy. I hate mood swings! People usually say it's because I'm a teenager but I'm 18 and I'm past all that teenager stuff. It's just hormones or something else.

Oh yeah and thanks for being there for me

Yikes. That sounds dangerous. Sorry to hear that you feel do down on yourself. Hope you learn to love yourself. Hugs

Sorry about that. I hope I can love myself again.