[blackdragon]

im pist that my cousin said if i keep doing this that she will have me committed. I NEVER SAID A WORD TO HER WHEN SHE CUTS. WHY DOES SHE HAFt TO be this WAY WITH ME? I know cutting is wrong. She doesnt know whats up. I can do what i want. Maybei should just let hercommit me. expensive vacation. HA..

[Lexicon78]

It's definitely not fair, is it? But I think she may have a point. I mean I know that you are cutting deep. That's very dangerous.

I don't usually go around saying cutters should get help for their behaviors because I don't get help for my cutting. I refuse to see it as a problem and am quite proud of myself when I do cut, but I don't cut so deep that it's endangering my life. I believe that you are endangering yours. I mean (1) your cuts are deep and (2) you often need stitches for your cuts don't you? and (3) you've even been to the ER for your cutting.

I'm just really concerned about your welfare. I really don't care if you cut, but I do care HOW DEEP you cut. I've never had so much as a stitch when I cut...ever. So I don't see it as a danger to myself. I don't think cutting the way I do is wrong or unhealthy...I know the rest of the world disagrees but I am not putting myself in the ER!

What I'm trying to say is that you do need help and maybe seeing a T in outpatient isn't cutting it for you. Maybe you need something more.

[Overcastbutclearing]

Blackdragon...don't know the whole situation between you and your cousin or the degree you have been cutting lately but safety is the main concern.
Do you feel like you may need to be in a safe place such as the hospital for a bit?
Are you in Therapy? On any meds to help your thoughts?
Are there any alternatives you can do to help your head feel less burdened w/o cutting?
Talk to us...let us help you sort it out if needed.
We care!

[JustBen]

People who care about you are going to get upset when you hurt yourself. It sounds like she's just doing the best she can to try and help, even if it means getting on your bad side and appearing hypocritical.

[blackdragon]

ok some days i think i should just get admitted and make everyone happy. THE PSYChO is put away locked in a padded cell with a strait jacket on. (no offense) i cant afford hospitalization. i can barley afford to fart. But she use to cut and she over reacts. i have only needed stitches once. other than that my cuts are not that deep. may bleed for a while but not deep at all. I just wish she would leave this subject alone. she criticize making me feel dumb over every thing. bipolar she tells me U DONT GOT BIPOLAR BIPOLAR IS DA DA DA DA DA DA u dont know how lucky u are to have bla bla bla mother bla bla bla and u all know my mom is a *****. IF U CUT I WILL TELL< (EVERY BODY FUC*en KNOWS). I know she cares but does she need to criticise every feeling i have. i feel like my feelings are false. None of my feelings are true to her. there made up. I guess they are. i mean if she says they are fake then they must be. sTUPid ME. why not end it just so at my funeral she can say i told her thatthis will ahppen. make her happy. im not thinking about suicide but my feelings are strong. i dont belong anywhere. i barley belong here. She makes my feelings inadequate. like compared to her life mine looks like a peice of cake. Well my life wasnt a peice of cake she does not kow that i was sexually assaulted, beaten, and been kicked out too.

im still pist.. i want to cut more justslash away. slash away all my skin. slash slash slash

[Rapunzel]

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That's the worst when someone criticizes your feelings and gets you to start questioning them yourself! Emotional invalidation is one thing that I think probably all self-injurers (and many other people too) have in common. Someone makes us feel like our feelings aren't real, so we end up proving that we really do feel that way. Maybe just to prove it to ourselves.