felt very angry today at myself

hi, i am an adult female been going to a t for almost a year grew up in a violent alcholic family (my dad) anyways been diagnosed borderline personality major depression generalized anxiety some ptsd, i started self injuring last year i only do in moments of overwhelming my husband cant stand it, its just an escape for me i hold all my emotions in have not cried in over a year i hold that in too today i felt like i hated myself angry yet empty yet depressed and so i did self injure i wish i could just let go of these emotions i have almost cried in front of my t but i stop talking and think about other things

So sorry you are struggling. It is difficult.

((((hug))))))

I refuse to cry as well. . . Unless alone. Emotions trapped need to be resolved and it sounds like you are on the right track.

I can relate. I si for a lot of the same reasons. My husband does not know that I am still si'ing. He thinks I stopped after my suicide attempt last December
I have cried in front of my t, but most of the time I try to hide from it. I have been seeing t for 5 years now though and she knows me very well and can tell when I am hiding. I can't offer much for advice because I still SI myself, but just keep seeing your t

You have to let those feelings out.