ODing on meds

I overdosed on meds yesterday because i lost a friend i have had for 9 years
last year she went to queensland for 1 year and came back and told me i was no longer her best friend so i OD on my meds. *tears* she was the only thing that seemed to keep me living

any way thanks for reading this i had to get it out someway

Milly

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((((((((((((( Milly )))))))))))))

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you didn't take way too many and that you will seek treatment if you find you need it. Losing a friend is hard, I have a good friend now of 10 years and it feels to me like there is no reason why we are friends now... that I am losing her to her other friends who have more in common with her.

I'm sorry you were hurt so deeply. I hope you will be able to find a reason within yourself (you are worthwhile just being you!) for living, and not base it upon anyone else's approval. TC

My mum is now wanting to take me off meds so i cant OD again. I dont understand how that will do anything but make my life worse. I need my meds to help my schizophrenia and depression (i dont need the anti-depressions as much) but she wants to take me off meds.
I dont know what to do.

I know how hard it is to lose someone so close. But you need to remember that you are important, too. I mean your friendship wasn't just one-sided was it? I expect it wasn't. A friendship takes two. The rejection of a friendship ending is awful. I hope you don't resort to the ODing again. I've done it many times and it didn't solve anything.

Maybe you can bring up to your mom other ways to ensure that you won't OD again. Do you live at home? Maybe she can administer your meds to you, leaving you with no way of getting the chance to OD. Just an idea there.