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Jan 15, 2012, 06:04 PM
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My t a couple weeks ago insisted I tell my husband that I was having cutting urges ,and that i was cutting, so he could hide what I usually cut with.
This was fine, and going well until the last week. I have been feeling awful and having cutting urges, but that wasn't an option. 3 of the last 4 nights, instead of cutting, I have taken vicodin with my other meds, to be able to sleep. I'm not experiencing any pain, so I didn't need the vicodin. Now I have to go in to therapy tomorrow and admit this to my t, and admit to the thoughts and feelings I have been having, and I am scared as hell. No real point to this post, other than me getting my thoughts out... |
 JustWannaDisappear, xxEmoTeenxx
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Jan 15, 2012, 06:26 PM
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and getting some support in, for what it's worth. thanks for sharing your thoughts with us. I am always glad to hear from you.
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Jan 15, 2012, 10:24 PM
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Sorry you are struggling. I can relate...switching pone form of SI for another. Good luck telling your t. I hope he/she is understanding and can help you. You'll be in my thoughts.
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Jan 16, 2012, 01:47 PM
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Jan 16, 2012, 06:50 PM
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I saw my t today. Painful session for a bunch of reasons. T made me go home and get all the extra meds I had at home and give them to her, and promise that I'd be alive to see her next week...
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 Nemo39122, Sannah
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Jan 16, 2012, 07:26 PM
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That could be a good thing, by giving up all of those meds. But t didn't make you do anything, YOU went home and gave up those meds, only YOU can choose how to live.
It's our choice of how we deal with things, and ours alone... I hope this makes sense, since I'm not thinking straight. |
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Jan 17, 2012, 12:12 AM
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Yeah, i did choose to give up the meds i guess.
I wish I hadn't. Found out today that i have managed to screw up the one real friendship i have. So now i have screwed up my family and my one friend. What's the point of life anymore? All i do is screw it up |
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Jan 17, 2012, 02:40 AM
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It's ok nicoleb2. If they really love you then they should also understand and try to sort out the problem. I think taking all the blames on ourselves make us feel worst. Don't take all the responsibilities on your shoulders, they should also play their part and don't think this way. Merely with one argumentation or action, nothing get messed up. Right?
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Jan 17, 2012, 07:57 AM
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It is almost like if you blame yourself repeatedly and continuously then you don't have to take responsibility for your behavior? What works frequently is when people accept what they have done, take responsibility for it and then move forward. Everyone makes mistakes. It is part of being human. Do you think that if you make a mistake then you are useless? Maybe this is all part of your issue with acceptance?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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