[Catherine]

it has been three days that the thought to cut has been in my head, and tonight i succumed to it. i have recently moved to college and started another postgraduate degree and on thursday we had our orientation. sitting in the lecture theatre was bad enough then the lecturer said to talk to the people next to us about some thing. and suddenly the noise, ahhh it was so horrid, i could'nt breathe i couldn't speak. it was all i could do to remain in my seat. and here at college, i cant leave my room when there are people around, so noisy so frightenin.
i think moving into college was a bad idea, but now i'm stuck here and i cant sleep and all i think about is cutting, i have nowhere to turn.

[Lexicon78]

(((((Catherine)))))

oh Catherine!!

I know so much of how you feel. Do you know what all is triggering those feelings? I think its time to use the resources available to you to help you along: your friends, the university therapists who are free, and any family members who may be supportive. Please stay safe.

[Catherine]

thanks to both of you (Safe hugs). it takes a while to sort out some of the triggers, there are so many for me that sometimes its hard to firgure out which one i used to justify my cutting.
Cat

[mangledreality]

Be strong is all I can say and that is what you are doing, I would crumble under that situation. I am sure you have heard all the things they sugjest to us instead of harming. trying to do the school thing is wonderful, just do not let your self get out of hand before reaching out. If it helps you are not the only one who does not know all there triggers. Be safe. I will think of you.