Self harming,

Hi I'm new on here, I've been self harming again, and waiting to see a therapist to get diagnosis for bipolar.

I find it so hard to talk to my friends an family cos I don't want them to worry.
I had a moment last night an out burst and I end up upsetting some one I loved very much. They don't want to see or speak to me, and I also upset a poor girl who done nothing to me,

It's so hard I ended Burning myself pretty bad last night.
Today my cousin has been on my case saying I'm out of order, that I don't know what's happening I'm just being a *****.
I am screaming inside and no one seems to be listening.

Is it possible you could make a safe place for yourself in your home, fill it with your favourite things and go there when you feel you need to SI? Maybe you could go for a long walk somewhere nice or visit a friend? Im here if you need me

I have my kids and would never let them see me do anything when hurting myself. So I guess there my safety they always make me smile. Maybe I should just go give them cuddles when I feel like hurting, big hug back to you to Hun thank you xxx

Sorry I dont have anything useful to say. I just wanted you to know that someone read your post and that you are not alone.

(((((hugs)))))

Hi gclouds, welcome to PC. I'm sorry that you are in distress. I can see that it upsets you when you upset others. Getting a therapist would be really helpful. A T is someone who can hear you without getting upset. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.