[MajesticStarr]

Hi - I'm new to this forum, until recently I didn't even know there were SI forums on the net. But then I guess you can find anything on the net if you're looking for it.

I haven't cut myself in a long time, 3-4 years maybe. I've just been so depressed lately, I feel like I want to do it. I know it's not really going to make me feel any better, but I've been thinking about it quite a bit lately, anyway. Thinking about it just makes me more depressed. I promised my SO I wouldn't do it anymore, that was years ago, right after we got together. But I cut myself since then, he just doesn't know it. I'm afraid to tell him I'm feeling like this again. I'm having trouble dealing with my recent split with my parents. I decided about 2 months ago not to deal with them because my relationship with them was a total nightmare. I'm less stressed out since I don't deal with them, but I am a lot more depressed. I'm thinking too much about the abuse they heaped on me.

I got started on this tonight feeling bad because I'm sad and missing my SO who's off on a hunting trip. Weird how one thing just leads into another and another.

[Rapunzel]

Welcome to the forum. I was surprised when I first came here to find a place where people talked about SI, but it seems that you can find what you are looking for on the internet, even this. [smille]

I'm sorry that you are feeling bad again, and hope it gets better soon. You will find lots of friends here and can talk about pretty much anything and find someone who understands.

If you feel like you might hurt yourself, or feel like you need help dealing with things, I would urge you to talk to a professional. Please don't start again with SI. I did, because it worked for me once and got me out of a depression that I had been stuck in for too long, and I figured it wasn't really a big deal since I didn't do it often, and up until really recently I had no intention of stopping, but it just gets worse. I think I'm trying to quit now. Anyway; it's easier not to get started again than it is to stop, and it really doesn't help anything.

Take care of yourself! Hang around and let us get to know you if you want to.

<font color=green>"Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible" Carl Jung</font color=green>

[PlanningtoLive]

Welcome Majestic,

If you have not SI in awhile, that is wonderful. I envy you. Try to talk to someone, maybe a therapist.......so you don't start down that road again.

Take care.

Mary Alice