I am forgotten
yet again
given away by birthmother,
taken away from second mother
and now society

Why is it that everyone gives up on me
I want to give up on me too, why not, its the going trend.

I haven't forgotten you! Neither your other friends here!!!

You're loved!!!!!

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I'm sorry you're in such a hurting state of mind! Keep fighting!!!!! You can beat this!

oh nina thank you

Everything is falling apart.

But I am trying.

I made it until now so im going to try for another fifteen minutes. Keep going another 15 at a time

[lenjan]

Rainbow, I am a birth mom -- I chose to give my son a better life than he would have had with me. I did it *because* I loved him, not because I didn't! And I can tell you that every birthmom I know grieves for her lost child the rest of her life. It is what caused the larger part of my depression and PTSD.

I love my son with all my heart and I've no doubt your birthmom loves you as well. I hope you find some peace with that.



Love, Candy

[Lexicon78]

(((((Rainbowzz)))))

I'm so sorry you are suffering so much right now. Take it a minute at a time!

Sending you warm thoughts and gentle hugs (if allowed).

[Fuzzybear]

Sending you warm thoughts and safe gentle hugs. I haven't forgotten you, I am sorry you're in pain

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(((candybear))))
(((lexi))))
((((fuzzybear))))

Thank you so much everyone.

Candy,
I know you are right, I really do. It just seems sometimes like the world has played a cruel joke on me in being adopted, then sent back at age 12(taken away) then bounced around from home to home, then to have society sort of let me slip through the cracks. I know in my heart she did it for good reasons.

Lexi

Thank you for being a dear friend. Yes, I did make it through the day and the thoughts are now passing.

Fuzzbucket,

Thank you for not forgetting me. Sometimes just knowing that friends like you havent forgotten me is enough to make it through the day.

The feelings are passing now that the situation has died down a little. My biggest trigger is feeling trapped in situations or having things be out of my control. So being thrown into a home inspection with a male authority figure and the thought of doing it alone threw me into a tizzy. Not to mention the fact that he was mean and unneccessarily short with me. Luckily tomorrow I get to go to their office, which means I wont be in a non public place and so I think it will be easier.

Thanks everyone