[Angelornot]

Why do innocent children have to die and I live? I don't even WANT to be alive. I just want to cut my wrists and watch the blood pour until I die. What's the point in me being alive? I can't see any. all I do is cut and try to stop and cut again. I wish I were brave enough to end it...

[Sannah]

You don't need a permanent "solution" to a temporary problem angel. There is a route to solving your issues, really solving your issues. From your perspective, however, you think that there are no solutions. You are young, which causes a narrow perspective on things and you are depressed which also causes a narrow perspective. There are solutions to your issues.

[Sam2]

Originally Posted by Angelornot

Why do innocent children have to die and I live? I don't even WANT to be alive. I just want to cut my wrists and watch the blood pour until I die. What's the point in me being alive? I can't see any. all I do is cut and try to stop and cut again. I wish I were brave enough to end it...

I wish there was an answer as to why children have to die. There isn't though. You are living for a reason. Somewhere at some point you have touched another person's life whether you know it or not. You have touched mine by leaving this post. Others as well.

There is a difference between wanting to die and wanting the pain to stop. People usually want to die because they can't bear the pain they are carrying around anymore. That is the time to reach out. You really don't want to watch your life run out of your veins. I know, I've done it and came very close to bleeding to death. Had a friend not seen the blood coming out from under the door, I wouldn't be answering your post right now.

If you have a friend or family member that can stay with you now, call them to come and be with you. If you don't, or feel that you can't tell someone you know, get to the emergency room where you will be safe. If you do something to yourself, you will wind up there anyway and just have more pain and scars. You matter. As long as you are alive, you have the chance to change things. Once you are dead, your chance is gone. Please keep us updated as to how you are doing. I don't know you, but it would still hurt if I found out that you had ended your life.

Sam2

do keep us posted... i really hope you manage to work something out

you've loads of life ahead of you- don't waste it

[Idiot17]

I've got the same questions. Hang in there.

[Angelornot]

Originally Posted by Sam2

If you have a friend or family member that can stay with you now, call them to come and be with you. If you don't, or feel that you can't tell someone you know, get to the emergency room where you will be safe. If you do something to yourself, you will wind up there anyway and just have more pain and scars. You matter. As long as you are alive, you have the chance to change things. Once you are dead, your chance is gone. Please keep us updated as to how you are doing. I don't know you, but it would still hurt if I found out that you had ended your life.

Sam2

I don't want to end up in the hospital. I still live with my family, but I'm pretty sure it would take people at least a day to notice if I killed myself.
I don't want to admit to any of my friends that I'm stupid enough to want to die. I'm not brave enough to kill myself though

[ickydog2006]

Nothing good will come from attempting suicide. Either you succeed and hurt everyone around you, or you don't and still hurt everyone around you and yourself and feel like more of a failure for having tried and not finished it. I don't want to live either, but I know that God wouldn't let me go through this without a purpose. I also believe he is a God of love and gets no enjoyment from my suffering. I just need to be obedient and trust that when he is done working through me than he will either ease my suffering or take me home.

[Angelornot]

Originally Posted by ickydog2006

I know that God wouldn't let me go through this without a purpose. I also believe he is a God of love and gets no enjoyment from my suffering. I just need to be obedient and trust that when he is done working through me than he will either ease my suffering or take me home.

thank you