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Feb 14, 2013, 08:06 PM
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I feel like taking at least 60 Klonopin. I took 20 yesterday (or 16 I don't remember) but my symptoms are getting worse. I am scared of Mike and the War. Mike is a voice in my head and he gives commands. The thing is my birthday and other good things are happening so I refuse to go inpatient. My party is on Sunday. My birthday is on the 19th of this month. World peace to you all. People talking to me constantly me wandering away. I also feel like cutting. Deep. I am angry with the world but I have to save my family from harm and this is how I must do it. There is a war I must fight but I have to fight the enemies. Demons. The Government (Mike and his men). I am terrified to be outside or near windows. Good sniping positions to kill me. I AM NOT SUICIDAL. God keeps on threatening to shoot me. I am scared. Today I waited in the car because I don't go into grocery stores any more because of the crowds and hearing their conversations about me. So I waited in the car while my mom went in. I cried. I yelled. I banged around. Locked all the doors. Put sunglasses on. Everything so they can't get me but no matter where I am at home or elsewhere they can get me, so it doesn't matter. The Energy Release is important. I just want the stress and voices to go away forever. I do take anti psychotics but I don't like it. it makes me too tired like someone in school. Its loud in here.
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 GirlOfManyFaces, H3rmit, Idiot17, optimize990h, paintingravens, PegasusJones, Permanent Pajamas, smmath
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Feb 15, 2013, 12:08 AM
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I really think that you should talk about these things with a therapist. I believe that there are AMAZING ones out there that can help you with the things you are dealing with.
You will get through this! -- Sam |
 FireBird, Squaw
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Feb 15, 2013, 10:37 AM
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Hi Firebird, welcome to PC. Do you have a T?
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Feb 15, 2013, 12:41 PM
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If you continue to neglect yourself, you may not be around for your party, or for anything else. It's time to actually start doing something for you. Start with something simple, drink more water. This will help the medications to actually work. Then try adding in some quite relaxing music (Spotify is great, since you get to choose the music).
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Feb 15, 2013, 03:04 PM
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Thank you for replying. Sorry I didn't get to you sooner. I love listening to relaxing music. Yes, I have a therapist (actually a psychologist) and she is very nice. I love Spotify and also Pandora. I listen to that all the time and enjoy it. I have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I think I am having the depressive part of it right now. That is why these depressing thoughts. Once again, thank you very much for helping me.
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Feb 17, 2013, 07:13 PM
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Does your T know about everything that you wrote in your first post in this thread?
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Feb 17, 2013, 10:54 PM
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I am going to tell my psychologist this week but I am terrified that she will put me in the hospital. I don't want to go to the hospital. My appointment is on the 20th and there is something that I am looking forward to that day. I don't feel like hurting myself as much as before. Thank you for replying.
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Feb 17, 2013, 11:03 PM
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In order for your T to help you they need to know what is going on with you. I'm glad that you are feeling a bit better. Please continue to keep us posted on how you are doing?
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