[Silent_Tears_17]

Everything has gone wrong. I accidentally killed my hamster, and I failed a test. And then the teacher told us to lie to the other teacher about our grades. And I did a big project and then a bunch of it didnt save so I had to do it over. And I have to go to physical therapy three times a week ($25/visit) and my parents were going to pay and now they're not sure if they're going to. And so I don't really know what to do. And all the scholarships at school are due and I have no support system... so I tried to make an extra counseling appointment at my school but I was told if it wasn't an emergency I needed to deal primarily with my off campus counselor. And I hurt so bad... and I havn't even been able to cut because I just have so much pain inside I don't know where to start. And I feel so guilty and overwhelmed and I dont know how long I can do this without completely exploding.

[Mara Mountain]

Silent I am glad you posted here on PC. We are your support system. When you have an urge keep your hands occupied by typing up a post. It is a positive step in the right direction when you posted this. That is a sign that you deep down do not want to cut. Also I am sorry to hear about your difficult week and therapy. It may be good to start with a part-time now if family is unable to provide support for your doctor. Is that is possiblity? Remember that you are not alone and we hurt in different ways. Please post again and also we are here to support. You will NEVER be alone here.

[Dreamer11]

You may feel overwhelmed, but it's great that you still came on here and posted about your feelings instead of bottling them up. You will find encouragement here no matter how things play out.

Wishing you the best

[Sannah]

Hi Silent, this all will pass .......... Now don't let your problems make you feel small, okay. You are not small. Reach your hands over your head take a deep breathe and tell yourself that you are big. Repeat as needed.