[yaseko]

Does anyone else experience difficulty with blood seeping through clothes? Yesterday, I was caught self-injuring by a nurse at my IP unit by the blood spots on my skirt, after my makeshift Elastoplast dressing failed to suppress the blood flow. The nurse put steristrips and a medical-grade plaster on it, but the blood still came through, and I've had to throw the skirt away after my attempts at getting the stains out with abrasive stain removers caused a hole to appear in the delicate cotton.

I'm terrified and feel guilty that I might have triggered others on the unit, walking around in bloodstained clothes. I don't know for how long the blood was on my skirt until the nurse saw it. Can anybody empathise?

[Sam2]

yaseko,

Trying to fix self inflicted injuries or stop the bleeding is a big mistake. No matter how careful you are, you might wind up with a serious infection or God forbid, bleed to death.

SI is just a symprom of extreme emotional pain. You need to talk to your nurse and come clean. I know that isn't what you want to hear, but in the long run, you will feel better. There are other ways to cope with your pain/anger than attacking yourself. It takes work. I was held captive by SI since I was ten and didn't stop until I was about 47yrs old. You don't want to go there.

I know you feel fear from telling someone about your problem, and even more the problems underlying the SI, but life is too short to waste it on misery. Until you can find the answer as to why you are harming yourself, it won't stop. You can do this. There are plenty of people here who would be glad to help you, even if its just allowing you to vent your feelings.

Sam2

[a bland]

I agree with sam2. U have to tell someone if u cut urself so bad it's seeping thru ur clothes. That's very dangerous. I'm a cutter too and I use to cut very deep until I almost lost my life cause of it. Just be careful.

[yaseko]

I try, I really do. Thank you. c: I'm mostly afraid that I might have triggered others with the blood on my clothes. I must have looked like a film zombie.