[Grey Matter]

I have to see a new doctor tomorrow (since we were put on medicaid our doctors changed). And I am not looking forward to it in the slightest. I am going to have an exam, and there is no way to hide my scars. And I don't feel like going through the ringer of mental health questions when it says clearly that I am in psychiatric treatment. But it's like they can't help themselves. And it makes me a nervous god damn wreck.

I am already freaking out that my suicide attempt in 2008 needs to be on the papers. I don't even want to bother going. I don't want them to look at me, or weigh me, or sigh at me. It just makes me want to cave and hurt myself.

[puzzclar]

But if you were ill, you would still see a doc... so let's just say healthy. will the new doc have access to all of the files from the old doc?? That way at least you can answer by way of it's in the file.

[grey_aj]

Puzzclar, exactly what I was going to say when I first saw the subject title. I think all of us here on PC would rather you be healthy and going to the doctor than ill and going to the doctor.

And yeah, Teen Idle, if the doctor has your file, yes ok he will see it all, BUT that saves you from an extremely uncomfortable conversation. The doctor will know, the doctor will act accordingly.

- AJ

[Grey Matter]

I went, not really having a choice. I was recently diagnosed with an autoimmune disease so I can't refuse to go to doctors. They had none of my files so I did have to explain both things. One to a very horrid nurse who did an EKG on me and asked "Why would you do such a stupid thing?" (after seeing my scars) Which was, of course, not comforting in the slightest. My doctor himself didn't mention anything. Just confirmed with me that I was in therapy and taking my medication.

It's just. This huge stress on top of everything else that is happening. I have to go to yet another doctor on Tuesday and again I am dreading it. It's exhausting.

[kirby777]

TI,

I am dreading going to a neuro appt on Monday, and still may cancel. He will be new to me, and I do NOT want to go over my psych history, even though my prior one wrote it down.....

I agree, it is exhausting. And I have already decided that I am NOT taking my clothing off and putting on a pt. gown. I only had to do that for my initial consult 10 yrs. ago.

I have beeen anxious and had stomaches about this appt. Plus for me it is so far away..UUGGHH.

BTW, totally inappropriate response from the nurse!

[x_BabyG_x]

Im so sorry you had to go through that, how down right ignorant of the nurse to say that to you! I hope you are feeling okay x