SI Daily Check In

Don't let urges be stronger than your power of will.You can always do something instead of sekf harming and you know it.You just gotta be stronger than the urges.

Hugs. :-)

Feeling a little better.

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I've been cutting less often lately, but so far today I've cut twice.

It's gotten to the point that it doesn't release emotions or anything, I just do it out of routine.

breakmystride, I know how it is to feel compelled to do SI out of routine. I have been there many times. I find that telling myself to keep holding off helps some. Let me know if you want to talk.

On another note, I have been really struggling not to self harm. I haven't done it, but I am wondering how long I can hold out for.

I know the feeling. I'm trying to break my routine while my boyfriend is here for the week. I don't know if I can do it though.

Today I haven't cut.

Hi. I'm new. I haven't cut today. I meant to. I just didn't get around to it.

I just want to cut like crazy. But I'm holding back. Well, I'm trying my hardest. Don't know how long it will last as it's building up inside of me.

Take a freezing cold shower Starstrike? Might help ease the urge a little x

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I already walked fourteen miles in strong icy cold wind and rain. I'd rather stay warm. I'd rather lean against the red hot radiator until I cannot handle the intense heat. I already did that earlier as an attempt to dry my soaked pants that I was wearing. It worked and it doesn't damage the skin. It just feels like it is damaging.

I hope you manage to find a way to prevent it, if only for tonight xx

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I SI'ed yesterday and I'm really disappointed in myself.

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I was clean for months. Months. Then the other day, I did it. And the day or so after, I did it again. I liked it.

And today, I'm clean.
But I can only guarantee today.

I can't manage to stay clean to save my life! The longest that I recall staying clean in the 7 years that I've been doing this is (I think) 2 days. I really want to do it right now, but since I'm in school, I can't necessarily do that...
I have something on me to do it with, but I can't do anything, since I'm surrounded on all sides by people...
I want to stay strong, but I'm not exactly sure if I can do it.......

I tried to isolate myself in my bed room. But... I managed to use the sharp corner of my computer table to SI. Why can't I keep myself safe? Why am I drawn to sharp objects?

One day free from SH. Yay! It's been a tough fight against the urge, which happened yesterday and today too.

After a few weeks (or was it months), it tripped me up again. Feels like it is going to be inevitable again this weekend and l am resigned to it. Have no motivation to not to want to, so l can't get my head to consider alternatives.

Couple of days ago I relapsed, after a couple of months without cutting. Disappointed in myself.

It seems like I can turn anything into a weapon and use it against myself. I discovered that early in the morning when I used a comb to SI.

7 cuts in 3 different sections from yesterday night. First time in more that 6 years? Way to go keeprolling. Back to zero =_=

It's been a few months but tonight I really want to do it. No one is home, I'm getting kind of excited thinking about it. I'm still trying to talk myself out of it though.

Everyone is excited about how we're starting to get Spring weather, except me, because I've added some scars over the Winter that will be visible in short sleeves. Not sure what I'm going to do.

SI is keeping me from SUI right now... So I don't care if I'm giving up on quitting. I'm not safe anymore.

Last night was hard and I gave in I went all out on my left arm 😔

~warm hug from me to you~