Had a bad night last night. Woke up at 4:00 because an awful nightmare but even after I woke up it kept playing in my head like I didn't wake up at all. I know I was awake, I knew I was in my bed but the filmstrip kept playing and I couldn't seem to turn it off. I finally got back to sleep around 6 or so only to have another nightmare where I am being chased down a stairwell, if I can reach my mom everything will be ok but of course I fall down right as the alarm goes off so I am jerked awake by the fall and the loud noise and my heart thumping in my ears, a scream at the back of my throat. I just want to crawl into a hole but there is too much to do today. I need to get my daughter's room done so that she can get her bed back in there so she can get a full nights sleep. I guess I should put my foot down and say, we are not striping the trim because we need to just get the dang thing done. But I won't because I want her vision to be realized. Plus I have to work this afternoon and spending the day in a hole is not going to make getting to work very easy. I just want to curl up and rock and rock and rock it all away in some dark closet somewhere. Sigh.
Carrie
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