[Chippie]

I need to cut, relief, please, I hate this I'm just a jerk I'm a horrible monster, just a little cut it'll help. No one cares anyway I'm useless. why do people even put up with me. All I ever do is hurt everyone. No one believes in me or trusts me they all talk behind my back saying how awful I am then turn around and just humor me or whatever. It's not like if anyone even knew they'd have any faith in me, I just screw everything up. just a small cut just a little blood, I need to...

[dalila]

Honey I would care if you cut. I care about you and I hope you can resist. I hear that it is hard right now and I know how the old tapes tear you apart. Try to do something else for a while. Put it off for a few more minutes and then a few more. Write it out here -- change your font to red and let it bleed on the page for you. You have value and I would not talk behind your back.

~D~

[Fuzzybear]

Chippie, as Dalila said, those are old tapes playing in your head ... we care about you here. It was good to see you in chat last night ... ((((((((((hugs))))))))))

Take care,
Fuzzy

[Zenobia]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{Chippie}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you. I hope you find something to do with your hands that will help preserve you body. Take care dear one,
Love
Carrie

[Chippie]

Thanks everyone, I try to ignore those stupid tapes, but it's really hard. Last night a friend of mine got hit by a car, and I became inendated with messages saying it was my fault and other crap like that, I know I wasn't but I just wasn't thinking straight at the time. I am glad that I can just come here and say stuff, I know it's pretty safe here. Thanks again.

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{Chippie}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Will your friend be okay? That's a traumatic thing to have to deal with. Now, you're talking about internalized messages blaming yourself, right? Not other people telling you that? Blaming yourself for things is one of the traits that goes along with depression, and probably part of what causes it (one of those vicious circle things). That you can recognize what is happening and that it really isn't your fault is really good. Then you can start to change those thoughts.

I'm glad that you feel safe here. This is a good place to talk about things that you might not feel safe talking about somewhere else.

<font color=orange>"Everyone has a need for significance; and if we can't make that possible, or even probable, in our society, then it will be obtained in destructive ways." -Rollo May</font color=orange>

[Chippie]

he's going to be ok, I had other friends blaming me for whst happened then i started blaming myself. I ended up not doing anything but playing shootie killy video games until I fell asleep. Thanks again everyone here really means a lot to me your all great.