[tealBumblebee]

I purged again tonight.

And I actually don't regret it.

I'd been emotionally on edge for the last two days and finally gave in and cut (I tried to wait until the last ones were previously healed). Then tonight, I was eating ice cream (not a binge amount) and just decided to purge it.

This is the fourth time in maybe two months?

It didn't hurt, and (i guess cause it was icecream) it came out easily. I also didn't do it as much before (it didn't come out of nose), so that probably helped.

I don't have an ED. I've solely been doing it for self harm purposes. I just like the way it feels but I know if I do it too much it can cause some pretty harmful effects.

Does the fact that i'm not doing it a lot help? Or that i'm only doing it partially - until it "feels good" (vs. feeling like I got it all out)? Does the fact that I care about the answers to those questions in the first place mean that I do at least care about myself a little bit?

[grey_aj]

Hi there,

In my opinion, the fact that you are not doing it a lot does not help. Just because you are not doing it a lot does not mean your problems are diminished, or the urges you experience and the causes of those urges are smaller. As for your last question, it could either mean that you care or that you're trying to minimize the problem. Anyways, these are just what I think. Best of luck.

- AJ

[ThisWayOut]

(hugs) dunno what else to say. I can relate... (though I think I may actually be falling back into my ED, but that's another matter). Can you talk to your T?

[tealBumblebee]

Originally Posted by MdngtRain

(hugs) dunno what else to say. I can relate... (though I think I may actually be falling back into my ED, but that's another matter). Can you talk to your T?

I want to talk to T, but honestly, I don't feel like it's become a big deal and would be making a problem out of none. However, i'm sorry that you have to share the feeling. Thanks for the hug though!