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Haven't cut since July. But I've been fighting with my sister since yesterday. I've hurt her and feel bad. She's done so much for me and it is the first time I actually stood up for myself and got angry. She's basically rejected me at the moment because of her anger and hurt. Living with her and not speaking to her is overwhelming it a bit. I want to cut bad.

Please, can someone convince me that I can get through this without cutting?

[SheHulk07]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, and I feel for you. I hate having the feeling like I have to cut or take pills to get through something.

Can you watch some tv, music, paint your nails? That's what I'm trying right now. Going to dye my hair later to help me through this. Hang in there.

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Originally Posted by AmyFed07

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, and I feel for you. I hate having the feeling like I have to cut or take pills to get through something.

Can you watch some tv, music, paint your nails? That's what I'm trying right now. Going to dye my hair later to help me through this. Hang in there.

Thank you. I think I'm alright. I did the only thing I could think of to try to take care of myself. I left and went to a hotel! Yes, I brought razors and even pills if I wanted to OD, but frankly, just leaving the house made me feel better. And I told her I would be back tomorrow and she actually emailed me and said she was worried. We mailed back and forth and I'm feeling better now. The impulse is gone and I'm actually comfortable enough that I feel like I can rest.

Thanks for your support. The impulse came on so strong and so bad, I was afraid I was actually going to do it. I'm going to watch TV and turn in early.

Take Care

[SheHulk07]

How are you doing today?

[reesecups]

I'm doing fine. Thank you for asking. Sorry it took so long to respond. I came home early the next morning, went upstairs nail breakfast and nothing was said. Absolutely not one word about our argument and the reason for it has been said. Made for a tense Saturday. I forced myself to go out Sunday and have been fine ever since. Thank you for your support!

[falsememory7]

Hey Reese, I'm so sorry that I'm replying to this so late - but I'm really glad that you're doing a lot better. I'm SO GLAD that the impulse is gone, and I hope it stays away for an even longer time this time around i'm sending you many hugs, and lots of support, my dear friend

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Originally Posted by falsememory7

Hey Reese, I'm so sorry that I'm replying to this so late - but I'm really glad that you're doing a lot better. I'm SO GLAD that the impulse is gone, and I hope it stays away for an even longer time this time around i'm sending you many hugs, and lots of support, my dear friend

Thank you very much! I really appreciate the support. . I have fewer impulses to cut but when I get them, I feel like nearly all of my coping skills nearly fly out the window. I just use old ones. Fortunately, it didn't include SI this time. I guess that's improvement.

[falsememory7]

That's definitely improvement... Once you start SI, it's so difficult to stop, and after you do, the impulses will always be there. Just the fact that the impulses are fewer, and you didn't SI this last one, shows how strong you really are, whether you see it or not. keep on hanging in there you're incredible!

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Originally Posted by falsememory7

That's definitely improvement... Once you start SI, it's so difficult to stop, and after you do, the impulses will always be there. Just the fact that the impulses are fewer, and you didn't SI this last one, shows how strong you really are, whether you see it or not. keep on hanging in there you're incredible!

Thank you! I guess even though I know it will be something I have to deal with for the rest of my life, it has shocked me these past couple of times how quickly them pulse has come on and I was too far gone for my normal coping skills to work.

I appreciate all the support!

Take care

[Fuzzybear]